I'm bored!!! it's been 3 FUCKING LONG DAYS! Argh. I'm going crazy. Can't wait till tomorrow(maybe) to see my dearest. Sigh. Oh yah, kudos to Crystal!! She's back from Aussie!! LoL. For a week that is. Friday..I'm sooooo looking forward to Friday.. Nothing Much..Boring! Confused..Help Anyone? Men frm Mars, Women frm Venus
Nothing much happened today. Woke up in the middle of the night, make that 3am to sleep in my mom's room cause there's a very strong presence in my room that does not allow me to sleep. For those who don't know, FYI, I can feel presence and sometimes see them. Sigh. My mom woke up too and switched on the fan in her room and switched off mine in my room. If you read the blog earlier on, Cinnamon needs to cool down. So I went back to my room and on the fan, blowing at her ONLY for THE WHOLE NIGHT. I went back to my room to sleep and funny thing is, IT had gone away. Maybe it got bored. LoL. Don't know.
Morning woke up, cooked breakfast and prepared to go school. My house almost caught fire. I put 2 bread in the oven to toast while I go bathe. I set it at a very low temperature and when I came out of the toilet, I smelled something burning. I rushed to the kitchen when I remembered I was toasting bread. By the time I got to the kitchen, there was smoke everywhere. Shit. First thing that came into my mind was how on earth am I going to explain to my mom? I switched off the oven and opened the oven door. Bad move. The kitchen was filled with more smoke. Double shit and oh no. I quickly pushed the clothes out and tried to clear the kitchen of smoke. Damn. I was so worried that the opposite block might call 995. It was that smoky. LoL. My mistake. That's why my mom's always worried when I cook. The last time, a similar case happened..not too long ago, about a month ago. I was cooking meat balls and turned on a low fire..I actually fell asleep. When I woke up, the pan was smoking..LoL. I'm that tired and absent minded.
I brought Cinnamon to school with me. I even brought her medicine cause she's better behaved outside than at home. I got clever and mixed her antibiotics with water to dissolve first, then add her flu syrup in before inserting to her mouth. Haha! Thing is I need to go buy medicine liaos. I wasted half the bottle of syrup yesterday night when I accidentally knocked it over the table. Sianz. Today she's better behaved than yesterday, where she attacks anyone that touches her. Her temperature did drop cause I left her in my workcell while I went to eat lunch and meet my supervisor. Nothing to do le so go home. She's now running around in my room, trying to cover my floortiles with her shit. And me? Stupidly clearing her shit after her.
I was feeling so confused for the past 2 weeks. I don't know what I want. Sometimes I get so irritated by him..sometimes I just want to give up. I've no idea what came over me. Stress? The bad impression that his parents are having on me? School? Friends? Sigh. When I get irritated easily, as in like *snap*, I'm irritated and angry, it's not a good sign actually. Don't know lah, well, I've overcome that phase. LoL. Thank God. I still love him though, just that whenever he discusses about us in the future as in marriage, I feel funny. Maybe I've no confidence in myself that he'll be with me that long or that I can actually wait for him in SG while he furthers his studies in Aussie. I've no idea. Let's just take a step at a time. I want to settle down..but I don't wish to wait that long..5 years is too long..not to say 6 or 7 years..I'm getting old. I'm a big sized woman with small thinking. I want to have a home, have a career and kids..but first I want to marry young and enjoy the time with my husband for maybe 2 years before having kids. I'm crazy? LoL. My friend got married when she was 16! Her kid now is 7 years old lehz..LoL..another of my classmate just got divorced 2 years back and has a 5 year old kid. That's life.
Anyone heard of this book before? It's by John Gray. It's very informational. I borrowed from my aunt about 4 years back. If I had read finish and share the info with Eggie then, we wouldn't had ended up like this today. Enemies. Ok, he's treating me like an enemy, and for me? I wouldn't mind being friends. Sometimes, seriously, I still do think of the happier times while we were together, which were lesser than the bad times we had. 3 years lehz. My first long relationship. My past 21 relationships ended with an average of 3-4 months? Longest then was only 9 months and shortest was only 3 days. LoL. It was a mistake from the beginning mah, so don't carry on the mistake lohz. Haha! Oh yah, Kevin's my 22nd..and shall be my last..hopefully.
Anyway, I was reading it in the toilet while doing business (I'm a bookworm! Don't blame me! I'd to read while doing business..) and I saw this chapter, How To Motivate the Opposite Sex. I saw a few phrases which I think made sense.
Quote from pg 43 of Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, published in 1992:' Men are motivated and empowered when they feel needed. Women are motivated and empowereed when they feel cherished'. It's so true lohz! FEMALES need to feel cherished before they are motivated to do anything. This is something that I'm actually feeling in my 8mth relationship with Kevin and something that I did not feel in my 3 YEARS relationship with Eggie. Please tell me how not to love Kevin more and more when I feel cherished?
Quoted on pg 44:'Martians(in the book, men are referred to as Martians and women as Venusians) have a win/lose philosophy-I want to win, and I don't care if you lose.. As long as each Martian took care of himself this formula worked fine. It worked for centuries, but now it needed to be changed. Giving primarily to themselves was no longer as satisfying. Being in love, they wanted th Venusians to win as much as themselves. Most of these Martian attitudes have a place in life, but this win/lose attitude becomes harmful in our adult relationships. If I(the author) seek to fulfill my own needs at the expense of my partner, we are sure to experience unhappiness, resentment and conflict. The secret of forming a successful relationship is for both partners to win'. Logical? It should be. This book was once a top selling book in New York and Singapore. If both parties win, I'm happy with winning, you're happy with winning, then there'll be no quarrels. Of course saying is cheap, to do it you actually have to have tolerance level of say, 200 out of 100? Haha. All these takes time de. People don't change overnight. Or rather, nobody can change if they don't want to, nagging doesn't help.
Quoted on pg 46:'Given the opportunity to prove his potential, a man expresses his best self. Only when he feels he cannot succeed does he regress back to his old selfish ways'. This describes Eggie perfectly. LoL. I kept setting high goals that he can't keep, so he turned nasty. LoL. It's over. I've learnt a good lesson in that. Nowadays, I still set pretty high expectations (I'm ugly, setting expectations and having him to keep up to it is actually an assurance that he loves me. Call me a sadist, I don't care. That's just me) but I don't really expect Kevin to keep up to them ALL the time. Just a gentle reminder along the way if he really wants to change, no more screamings and shoutings at my partner just cause he can't do a simple thing like cutting down on smoking. I feel cherished what. LoL.
Quoted on pg 46 still:'Not to be needed is a slow death for a man'. All the above are actually for females to see hor. Except for the first quote. Please hor ladies, if you think he's the one, make him feel as if you need him. If you don't need him, why be with him in the first place? If you love him yet don't need him that much, just pretend k? LoL. Joking. When you love someone, you actually need him..to share your happiness and sadness..your joy and sorrow, and of course your life. So ask yourself if you need the guy. If it's just for accompaniment, I can tell you that you're actually wasting both of your times. Need to know more whether you love a guy? Ring me up at my mobile and I'll set up a counselling session for you for a minimal fee of a cup of caramel frappocino @ Starbucks or Pure Chocolate @ Coffeebean.
This is for the guys. It's finally your turn! Quoted on pg 48:'A woman's tendency to be compulsive relaxes as she remembers that she is worthy of love-she doesn't have to earn it; she can relax, give less and receive more. She deserves it.' Females, do not, I repeat, DO NOT take it for granted k? For too much giving is tiring. To the above quote, I shall explain with the passage under the title Too Much Giving Is Tiring from the same page.
'To deal with their depression the Venusians were busy sharing their feelings and talking about their problems. As they talked they discovered the cause of their depression. They were tired of giving so much all the time. They resented always feeling responsible for one another. They wanted to relax and just be taken care of for a while. They were tured of sharing everything with others. They wanted to be special and possess things that were their own. No longer were they satisfied eing martyrs and living for others.
On Venus, they lived by lose/win (men is win/lose remember?) philosophy-"I lose so that you can win." As long as everyone made sacrifices for others, then everyone was taken care of. But after doing this for centuries the Venusians were tired of always caring about one another and sharing everything. They also were ready for a win/win philosophy.
Similarly, many women today are also tired of giving. They want time off. Time to explore being themselves. Time to care about themselves first. They want someone to provide emotional support, someone they dont have to take care of. The martians fit the bill perfectly.'
Shui boh? Shui right? Maybe after reading all these you feel as if this book is actually saying things that you've felt all these while. Well, what are you waiting for? Go buy the book lah! Better still, go borrow but not from me cause want to read on de k? There's actually alot of things I wanted to write but think today write very long liaoz. Maybe some of you skip here skip there also. Haha. Think tml bah..k lah..634pm liaoz. Time to play game. Wrote the blog for whole afternoon didn't have much time to play game. LoL. Take care you guys. To Kevin, I'm so proud of you and I want to tell you that I love you alot. I'm waiting for your return from outfield as impatiently as I should be. Love ya!
Sigh..Monday..my love had gone outfield liaoz. Sianz. 4 days can't see him. Best thing is, today's our 8th month anniversary. Officially that is. Else it'd had been a year le. Haha! It was around this time last year that we started dating each other behind our partners' back, going for coffee and TCS(Talk Cock Session), and always ending the date with a kiss. LoL. Opps. Haha! How Aries am I? Pet Sick.. Cool Cab Diff Between $10 & $25 Consultation Fee My Idiotic Darling
Was a little bored so went to do this, which I'd found at my friend, Crystelle's Multiply. LoL. How Aries am I? Can see right? Beware. I get jealous and angry easily. But my temper drops as fast as it rises. LoL. Those who knows me well enough should know that. Be warned. Do not take that for granted. Else your fate would be that of QT.You are 80% Aries 
Cinnamon's sick! For those that do not know who or what is Cinnamon, the below pics are for you to see. Had her when she was only 2 mths old, but I carried her when she was around a month old. Pictures are according to time taken in ascending order.
Sunday night she slept with her legs facing the ceiling. I was so afriad that she passed on! Instead of going school today, I went 201E buy a carrier and a large bottle for her. I arranged time with Eugene and Huiling to accompany me see vet. Why? Cause Cinnamon's dad, Kevin couldn't be here. Outfield remember? We decided to go Clinic for Pets located at Blk 1015 Geyland East Ave 3 (it's actually opposite Paya Lebar MRT only) cause the consultation fee only $10. I'm not being cheap. Frankel Ave that one needs appointment. I went down it was closed, the Clinic for Pets that is. So we went to have lunch at 4pm at Singapore Post. It was raining while walking towards SP. eugene being the nice gentleman he always is, he carried Cinnamon's carrier and shielded her from the rain while I walk behind, cause I was wearing...SLIPPERS! *Note* Definition of slippers: A pair of comfortable soles which enables you to slip faster, easier and hard on your butt on wet surface. The clinic opened at 5pm, so we reached there at 530pm, cause had to withdraw $100. Stupid clinic no NETS machine. Go see liao, the doctor told me she's quite ok, except for her lungs which might not be working well. She say until majiam really serious, can't live thru the week those kind. She referred me to James Tan Clinic, which aka Mount Pleasant Animal Clinic at Whitley road. I was so damn scared and despondent. I was debating with myself whether to bring her over to the clinic today or tomorrow. I called up the clinic and was told that consultation + x-ray ONLY would cost $70+. I was like..WTH. Since got time, bring her over lohz. They open at 630pm anyway.
We took a cab down and the cab was like so cool! On the exterior, it looks like any normal green cab. Inside, red carpet with 2 LCD TV behind which was fitted with TV Mobile! The driver switched the radio to TV Mobile station for us. That's not all. Inside the cab, at the top where the mirrors are, were rows and rows of CDs. And on the dashboard were car models. Those kind where the ratio of the car to real vehicles were 1:72. There were convertibles, stretch limo, sports car and sorts. I was told to look behind by the driver and behind me (I was sitting behind) were more cars. But these were slightly bigger, maybe 1:40? Got Subaru WRX lehz. The cab don't look like cab lohz! My God. Haha! Another car enthusiast. Like me! Haha! I love cars! Honda S2000!! My dream car..and there's RX8, Zonda, Lamborgini..Kevin sort of like Nissan Z concept..Don't really know what cars he like also. Haha..he used to like Nissan Fairlady.
The last car very nice hor? But I don't know what car is that lehz. I've been told that it's MR-S or maybe MR-5. I've no idea, who knows please tell me k? I love taking pictures of nice car, so next time u see your car featured here, be proud, be very very proud cause I don't take pictures of normal sedan cars..unless it catches my eye..
Ok back to story..so we reached liao and we waited till like 7pm before they open. I went in to register cause I've not brought my pet there before. All the while from 615pm-7pm, Eugene was calling Cinnamon Vanilla. He renamed my baby!! Argh. He suggested the next pet to call Vanilla, so I'll get a cola twist. Na mah..argh. Register liao we went in, I described the problem to James, the vet and he assured me nothing's wrong. She just had flu and very high fever. Ok..for human it's very very high. 40.1oc! She had a jab and guess who got scared and covered the eyes? It's me. I've a phobia of needles..not any needles, just jab needles. Argh. Anyway James taught me how to feed Cinnamon the flu syrup and antibiotics and it looks pretty cool. I'm to feed her the medicine tml. Lalala.
We went out and wanted to pay, I saw the receptionist-cum-nurse keyin $70, $25, $20. Funny thing was I only paid $45. That's pretty ex le k! Other people's pet sick, they throw away, mine sick I bring her go see doctor. With that amount of money, I can actually have a new rabbit. Thing is, I realised I love her more and more. At Paya Lebar, I almost cried at the thought of Cinnamon passing away. Sigh. With that, we went home. Took a bus home infact. Slowly shake home..then let her sleep. I was told to let her sleep in aircon room (which my home does not have) so I kept the fan blowing at her and every now and then spray her with water to keep her body cool. Tml gonna bring her to school liaoz..
Hmph! He cared for Cinnamon more than he cared for me! He called me but I was at the vet, so I told him I'll call him later. When I was done I messaged him, and he replied asking me to take good care of Cinnamon..WITHOUT ASKING ME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AS WELL. Idiotz. He called just now and we chatted awhile. Stupid Ramus was at the background distracting him. I got pissed. It's not as if he could call me anytime, and since he called me, then he should at the least pay attention to me right? If he wanted to PR with Ramus, then don't call me! Don't really like Ramus cause although he drive auto car, he's not a very auto person. He don't know when to do or say the right things at the right time. No wonder he always in trouble. Beginning to dislike him more and more, especially after he "introduced" a girl by the name of Yvonna to Kevin. Fucker! The whole Singapore is crawling with fuckers who can't stop introducing girls to Kevin and sluts who don't know when to back off when he's attached. Argh. Yupz, I'm an Aries. This is my trait. Sue me.
Too long no write, was "scolded" by my No. 1 fan, Grace. LoL. She says she come see alot of times yet I never update. K lah k lah..I was too busy..will write what happened in March..if I could remember that is..Anyway I would like to wish zz aka Wong Xiujun a happy 23rd birthday! Damn..we're old..haha! Happy birthday girl! 6th April, MIE D&D Pre-preparation.. @ the Hotel.. At Grand Ballroom 1..The Dinner At his house..
SHIOK!!! Although only a total number of 71 people attended, it was fun. At least more successful than the previous batch. Hear that Samantha? You don't really like me do you? Well, guess what? I'd made it MORE SUCCESSFUL than you! I held it at Hilton Hotel! Haha!! Although our budget from club funds were only $400+..it was MORE SUCCESSFUL than yours! LoL. You used $1k+ and held it at where? Pheonix Hotel? Oh Gawd. Such a sucky place. Haha! Thanks leh! If it weren't for you, I wouldn't had wanted to organise this event. I want to show you, Andrew Tham, Barry and Celest that I've good organisation skills too! Hmph! Yes yes, I'm being spiteful, so what?
Yesterday was so busy lohz! Morning still have to go CDS (Global Citizenship) and my lecturer don't let me go off early. I was supposed to reach Hilton by 2pm, but I left school at 1pm. Went home, burnt some DVD as door gifts and went to make my hair. 
Nice not? Want to know what I wore? I wore a tube dress. First time wearing sleeveless. Chosen by Kevin. Haha! Such a nice bf right?
I've a room reserved under my name, and I was to check in at 2pm. Since I couldn't make it (I went to do my hair at 345pm..by time I was done, it was already 5+pm), I wrote an authorization letter for Weiliang to check-in on my behalf. I went there and was told to pay. Piangz! I thought they had paid! So paiseh to give my Mastercard when it's already empty inside. Yes, it's a debit card. My dad wouldn't give me a sup card cause he's too clever for that. Anyway, in the end I paid with cash, $100. They gave me another key and I went to take the lift. It's too chim..or maybe I too stupid. I don't know how to use the lift. My room was 0706, I pressed level 7 but the light kept going off. One of the passenger told me I've to insert my key. I was like ok..didn't know that Hilton so high tech. I put in the key and level 7 still didn't light up. When it reached one of the levels, I went out and it was level 11. Piangz. Paiseh. I tried to go down and i inserted my key in and out of the slot in the lift many times. People were lookin at me. Sob. Heng at level 7 someone pressed for the lift. I got out and saw Meng Lei. I was never so relieved to see her in my life. So paiseh you know. Went into the room and Weiliang asked me if I was wearing jeans. I told him that I'd come into the room to change actually. I went to change and when I came out, they were surprised. They as in Weiliang, WeePin and Xiao Hong. LoL. Those people rarely see me in skirts you see. I finised my make up (it was just a simple make up..blusher, lipstick, eye shadow and I'm done) then I went to the ballroom to help out le.
I went in and started walking around like nobody's business. I was introduced to Derrick, the person in charge of the banquet. He like ok lehz..gave me 18 complimentary carpark passes. So nice. Cause initially I'm supposed to have 14 only. Anyway, went around helping those that need help and bark orders at my sub com. LoL. NO lah!! They're my friends ok!! I went outside and saw Carlos and co. handing around talking. I approached them and they almost couldn't recognise me. Haha! Ci Bao complimented on my dressing and we were joking that Mickey should have worn skirt, so that Eng Chin would run around Orchard 3 times bare assed. LoL. Anyway, the food looks good. Haha! Walked around being PR..cause I've no definite station. I was told to be PR so I be PR lohz. Haha. Saw Michelle Low..damn was she pretty! Haha..everyone looked so pretty and handsome last night.
By 715pm, everyone settled down le, Kevin wasn't there yet. I was worried and started to call him. When he reached, he called me cause he couldn't recognise me. Most people couldn't. Haha! It feels funny to have people complimenting you when you actually bothered to dress up. But it feels damn good. Seeing the reaction on John's face and everybody's face and everything.
Time passed by very fast and before I know it, it was time to choose the prom kings and queens. At that time, John they all kept chouting my name. I was begging him not to, cause I was having menses. After they chose the finalists, we went out to the lobby for a smoke. Many asked why I wasn't chosen. How was I to know? Maybe cause I'm really not pretty enough? I got bored and started taking pictures.
Well, we played some games, our table won the first game and Kevin won one of the sub game from game 2. I've 3 boxes of chocolates in total. They chose the prom king and queen, Roy and Du Xuan. Heard rumors say that Du Xuan went for surgery before. What kind you ask? Go think bah. LoL. after the dinner, I went around PR-ing and decided to go home. Andrew thanked me and I could feel that it was sincere. Don't know why but I felt funny. Most of the guys went Zouk after the dinner whereas me, Kevin, Michelle and Zhiwei decided to go home. Kevin went to pick up the car (it's a Merc!) while the rest of us waited at the lobby. It felt shiok to have many people staring at us when we board the car. Especially witnessed by Barry and Celest. No I don't hate them, just don't really like them. Why? Cause I've found prove that they did some backstabbing behind me when I didn't do that to them. And now that they're gone, I can stab however I want. Muahahaha. I'm such a small person. That's just me.
I went back to Kevin's house after dinner..that's about midnight. His parents weren't asleep and damn..his parents were rather open with their thoughts. As in the bad way. They said loudly infront of me that Kevin should have sent me home instead of bringing me over. It hurts. I was feeling awkward and didn't know what to do. I stood there looking at Doggy. They were openly scolding him about ME..infront of ME. After that, I went to Wei's room and chatted with me. Could see that he approved of my dressing also. Haha! Went back to Kevin's room and started taking pictures..some with his cam and some on my phone. Here they are..
Don't mistaken..last 2 pics I was STILL wearing my dress. It's a tube dress remember? Kevin was helping me take off the pins from my head, so I could go bathe. I was so damn tired that by the time he finished bathing, I was already asleep. LoL. We woke up at 430am and he sent me home. So sweet! Baby, thanks for supporting me and thanks for complimenting me the whole night. You made me feel beautiful..Love you! All in all, the whole night was so memorable..sigh..I wish time would stop..