I HATE QT
Love of my life.. Labrador Park anyone?
Darling baby, this is for you. Thank you for being in my life. Yes, wana hold hands with you till old. *Ewww..mushy* Wana sit down like tonight, watching the dog chasing the cat up the tree..sigh. Having you beside me, I realised I'd never had such strong feeling of being loved before. Thank you. I realised you really DO love me alot and likewise me to you. I love you Kevin. How I wish that the moment at Labrador Park will stop, just the 2 of us, or rather we were rather oblivious of other couples there. Sigh. Although it had ended may our love never end..LOVE YOU!!
*I abit tak boleh tahan myself..how can I be so mushy?! But I like..muahaha!!
Seriously, tonight had been the best night I had, after the Sentosa trip that is. I felt as if I know him better. After Parkway, we took a cab down to his house to collect the car keys since he needs to go back camp to get stuffs. We went back and smoked at his lobby and chatted about QT. My N1AE. N1AE stands for Number 1 Arch Enemy by the way. Went to his camp, his workshop and his bunk. LoL. First time I step so deep into a camp. First time I see his locker at his bunk. First time I know where he works. I feel so..argh. The feeling is indescribable. It's like getting to know more about a part of you. The exuberant feeling. It's like..how to say, the feeling of getting your first toy, you want to go home and explore it and play with it right away. It's just like opening up presents on Christmas day. Like getting red packets on New Year..sigh. felt so excited and happy. Exultant! Although was rather amused by his campmate, cause they weren't exactly dressed when I was there. They thought Kev was joking when he told them I was there. When they finally realised that I was there, they hurriedly went to get dressed. Haha! Cute. Helped carry his coveralls and Larry's, as well as Kev's safety boots. With that we left camp.
We were cruising around when Kev asked me where I felt like going, since it was only 9:30pm. I had no idea where to go, and since we over-budget ourselves today, we wanted to go somewhere just to chat..and NOT SPEND A SINGLE CENT. We landed ourselves at Labrador Park. Nice scenery. It looks like the place at Hong Kong where couples always meet. We climbed over the railings and sat down. Chatted a long time about ourselves and our relationship. I realised I felt love coming from him to me. Call me mushy whatever. I'm on cloud nine tonight. I told him that I hate him cause whenever we go out, I don't feel like leaving. He felt likewise. Hmmz..tonight his mouth very sweet, keep sweet talking me. I melted. Haha! We decided to leave the place for home and he climbed over the railing first. When I climbed over, he stood infront of me and wanted to piggy back me back to the car. I obliged. Why not? LoL. He carried me halfway then dropped me down. Throughout the whole journey back to my home, he held onto my hand. Shit..this is getting too mushy for you right? Don't read then. LoL. Anyway ending soon liaoz. Went back to my house there and he sent me up tonight. I came home and changed my msn nick to 'I'll always remember the wonderful night I had tonight with you..I love you', not knowing he had also changed his nick. His nick? '.:Kevin:. If only time will stop for the both of us be this way forever ..'
Dear fans! I'm back..actually I think I only have ONE measly fan..GRACE!! I dedicate this blog to you and I sincerely SALUTE you!! You actually ahve the time to read my blog..when you should actually be nursing yourself back to health!!!!! Anyway..here goes..
New Year Shoppin!! Something Happened He came...with them
Woah!!! I went shopping with my parents today!! We left the house at 5pm, and shockingly, my mom actually suggested taking cab to Parkway. Yah I was shocked but I was alright with it. Taking cab is my forte. LoL. Anyway, went to V.hive to buy computer table and chair first. I fell in love with the chair! I reminds me of Kev's merc. Haha! We then walk over to Parkway Shopping Centre de, passed by a pet shop, so I dragged my father in. I stood inside for more than 30min! I was looking at the rabbits and dogs. I saw a Siberian Husky!!!!!!! My favourite dog! My mom went to buy lottery, leaving my dad with me. Yupz! Leaving DAD with Me. I didn't want to leave the pet shop. Too many animals! Cat, dogs, birds, hamsters, rabbits...
Next stop, a car roadshow. Actually it's Hyundai roadshow. I missed driving the Getz. It's cute, short and stumpy. No head no tail de, so nice for reckless drivers like me. Nvm, Huiling's bday coming up, maybe go rent again. I took brochures on Sonata and Getz, but my father say Hyundai no good. Wel he had some bad experiences with Hyundai Elantra, his old car and he use one bamboo stick to capsize whole boat. LoL. He says wait till I start working then he'll buy me a better car. Well we shall see lah huh, he's always breaking his promises de. Anyway, went to this hobby shop at Parkway and my dad bought me my first Stikfas toy. It's this 3" toy that requires assembly. It cost $20. Fucked up. My dad pay anyway. My dad explained to my mom that it's either the toy or the car, and he rather buy the toy. Damn!
Went Swensens to eat dinner, I had sirloin steak medium rare, which when I cut, it's 3/4 rare. After dinner went on with the shoping.
I dragged my parents into Levi's store, cause I wanted Levi's jeans. I tired on the jeans and both my parents agreed it was nice, except a little too long. My mom paid for it. Shocking right? First time n my 22 years, 10 months that I actually owe a pair of Levi's jeans!!! Well I like that cutting very much! It's 577 cutting. Woah..haha! How much it cost lehz? A measly $0!! Cause not I pay mah stupid! That's the good thing about going shopping with your parents. They pay almost everything for you, all I had to do was try on and let them see. If they like it then I have it. I told him my dad that he's out dated..that's how everyone wear the jeans nowadays..LONG. LoL.
After Levi's, we went into BATA, couldn't find any new shoes so went into John Little. Funny thing is that ever since I'm with Kevin, the clothes at John Little don't really appeal to me anymore. The blouse and shit..nah..not for me liaoz. Bought 3 underwear..haha!! New Year, everything must be new, including undergarments. Went onto Esprit next, tired on this lovely beige pants. Really very nice. Tried on a pink blouse with it, but the colors like don't match, so my mom brought me black instead. Funny thing is the black pants and the pink blouse although match, it looked very lian. Don't like. In the end I bought the beige pants. Very executive look! Haha. Like real.
Was trying on clothes at Esprit when Kev called and asked if I want to join him, Terence and Thomas for coffee at C.A.N. Cafe. I wanted to go so I asked my parents. They started nagging at me and the more I talked, the more pek cek I was. I keep promising them I'll reach home by 10+pm. It was only 9pm lehz. Piangz. My parents keep asking me to go see clothes, see rings see accessories, cause they want to drag my time. By the time they were done, it was already 915pm. Time to go home le. At the taxi stand, I still insisted that I wanted to go and my mom started nagging. It came to a point where I couldn't take the naggin anymore and I told them to take the cab home while I take the bus. I walked off. I went to buy cigg, thank god I still had $12 left and there was a lighter in my jeans. I lighted one stick and found a place to sit. I felt someone was beside me and when I turned around I saw my mother. I ignore her and carried on smoking but I couldn't stand it when she started nagging and nagging about my smoking. I just wanted to be alone lohz, they can't even have the decency to leave me alone. I told her to go home with dad and leave me alone and tat I'm not meeting my friends anymore. I just wanted to be alone. Before she left, she told me to take 60 from Eunos and not walk home. I took out my ciggy and wanted to smoke another stick, thing is my mom was at the bus stop lookin at me. Out of respect I didn't smoke. My dad sat down beside me and started chatting with me. He asked me to go home with them nicely. Yes, he talked to me nicely and didn't raise voice. But I just wanted to be alone so I told him to leave me alone and I walked off. At first I wanted to go Octopus and maybe call Marc down, but I didn't have Marc's number so I just walked to his block and started smoking. Kev called me and chatted with me, but I don't think he knew how hurt I was or how angry I was. He wanted to pick me up and go have coffee with them, but I didn't want to. I was waiting for him to say that he's on his way to Parkway to find me. But he didn't. He told me he was on the way to Bugis, or rather he had already reached the cafe. I was heartbroken. I wanted him to come over and give me a hug or console me, bu all he could do was ask me what could he do to make me happy. It seems as if I've to teach him how to be a bf. So tired. Hanged up with him when his frens reached and I continued smoking another 3 sticks before I left. I reached home and my mom ignored me. I went to bathe and wrote this blog. Kev said he's coming down. Sigh. He told me he bought me something. He's always doing that..buying food to make me happy. Thing is that's not what I really want from him. I need a listening ear and someone to lean on when I'm sad or angry. Maybe I'm too dependent on him..it's time I stand on my 2 feet.....
He called me and I went downstairs. My parents didn't stop me and didn't call me the whole hour I was outside. Went downstairs and saw his car, thing is the car is not empty. I saw Terence and Thomas inside. And happily I thought he was coming alone, so I brought my Stikfas with me, cause I know he likes Stikfas also. This was something we could do together, and at the spend time with each other. Went to Prata shop and seriously, they were discussing about the laptop Thomas wanted to buy, so actually, throughout the whole hour, I was rather quiet. I was already angry and sad, but had to do this. Sigh. What's wrong with me? Do I really need his presence so much that I don't mind not being alone with him when I'm sad or angry? I must be crazy..time to wake up. But I was happy though, cause he did try to change for me. The last time I broke down infront of him I told him what I actually wanted. He sent me to my lift. That was better than nothing right? Thing is, humans are never satisfied. Esp me...
Fucked up lecturers!
Yepz!! Recently hor, all those lecturers whom I'm close with are all FUCKED UP. Fucked up I say. Like my supervisor Lum Moon Kiong, he used to be so nice de lohz. Then recently keep fucking my group and me upside down. Everyday also bua frontside and backside. Yesterday scolded us for being too free. Today me and Zhiwei went inside cleanroom, leaving Hong Ye alone outside cause he can't go in and poor Hong Ye became the victim. He kena fucked till jialat jialat. Stupid Lum wants to see the circuit which he had asked us to do. Thing is, my group does not need to use that circuit at all. So patch up for what right? Hong Ye told Lum that we not doing that circuit, then Lum said, " Do it now. I want to meet you alone at 2pm. The rest I'll meet on Friday. I want to see what other excuses you can give me." After saying that he walked off. Steady right? Na bey. Me and Zhiwei stay inside cleanroom also not fun lohz! 4hrs straight. Sianz. I fell asleep inside and we were so bored we started playin with my phone, making videos. So cute! Next time I upload here. LoL. Anyway, me and ZW took a break at 1pm and realised the process was done by the time me and Hong Ye finish smoking. Went back in and to avoid Lum, Hong Ye went into the cleanroom. This is the first time my group is so united. First time this semester 3 of us went smoking (Zhiwei smoke 2nd hand), went to have lunch together and stood up for each other infront of Lum. Lum met us at 2pm, and after we argued with him, he praised us for good work done and all those shit. Just the day before he said we too free. KNS. Fucked up. But today rather fun lohz.
After 3pm, the time seemed to pass so fast. Eating, slacking, chatting, laughing, soldering 'I LOVE YOU' on copper boards..sigh. I'm also sick of wearing glasses to school le. When can I wear my contacts again?! Stupid eye, stop itching can? Fucked up. Tml is Cibao's bday!!!!! Cibao, be prepared and be afraid. Be VERY afraid..LoL.
Death of last hamster
Yepz. Pepper's dead. I guess dead for abt 2 days le bah. Cause these 2 days never hear him trying to drink water from an empty bottle, never hear him crawl around his empty bowl..K I know I'm abit irresponsible, but eversince I moved his cage to the halls, I keep forgetting to feed him or to give him water. Think he died of dehydration and old age. He's really old hor! 2.5 yrs old. That's old for hamsters liaoz. Don't know why I don't feel sad. Maybe cause I'm abit numb le, or maybe I really find him more of a burden than pleasure. My mom had been giving me pressure to feed him to the cats since like day 1 I brought him home. He was a gift from Bertrand 2.5yrs ago. Sorry Bert, for not really taking care of Pepper. First it was Salt, then Prince, then Precious (I starve her on purpose de! Muahaha..she's evil), then Sleepyhead (my first hamster) and now Pepper. Over the 2yrs and 9mths, I've seen more than 5 hamsters dead. Prince and Precious did give birth to >4 babies, of which 3 are alive and having a good time (I hope! I gave them to pet shop) and Salt and Pepper did give birth to >3 babies, of which none survived. Sigh. I'm a bad pet owner. Will I be the same when I have a dog? I doubt so. For me, out of sight == out of mind. LoL. I'm bad. Tml I'll be throwing the whole cage tgt with the hamster inside away. Think my parents will rejoice. Too bad for them. I've set my eyes on a new breed of hamster; Rovorovski Hammies! LoL. Yet I love the rabbits that Dexian has. I already "booked" 1 rabbit from Dexian when his rabbit gives birth again. LoL. Steady right? Shui..steady! Haha!