Today's a sunny day, but that can't be said for my feelings. I was feelin blue the whole day, wearing a mask of smile so my friends won't notice. Today went for morning lab, supposed to hand in project today and have the project interview, but I haven't done yet. Then Hong Ye came, and wanted to patch up circuit, so he went to his locker to find got breadboard or not, when he came back he was smiling. He told me he found the CKTCS project from last year, meaning we no need to patch up! We tried and tested it, but TanTS wasn't happy with the product and told us to change the resistance value. We calculated the value to be 20K and 2K resistors and we change and VOILA! The project is done! The report not done finish yet though..going to do tml since I'll be free.......supposed to have something on today as well as tml..but then.......
After class went lecture, got bored there so HY suggested that we go eat. Me, Han Sim and Hong Ye drove to opposite school to eat. HY's new car so cute! So small and look so round..the Mitsubishi Colt 1.5l. Yellow somemore, very cute lohz. All the time I was restraining myself from calling him. Some things are best to let go by forgetting. went to Dexian's house after lunch and he took such a long time to open the door cause he went back to his room to wear clothes when he knew I was there. LoL. Went in to see Cinnamon's parents and sister. They looked so small! Muahaha..maybe cause Cinnamon is fat. I realised that Cin takes after the father's looks and the mother's build. No wonder she so cute. Muahaha. After that HS and Dexian have to go back school for EPS, which sadly I'm not involved, so HY sent me to the bus stop to take bus home.
I'm supposed to go see doctor now, but well, some people don't like facing up to reality. I'm one of them. Don't want the doctor poking up my asshole to find out what's wrong with me. It's just blood in stools what. Maybe I don't drink enough water, maybe not enough fibre..maybe? Thing is my lower left abs have been hurting lately..my doctor told me once that if it hurts it means something's wrong with my intestine, both big and small. Sigh..don't wish to know lah. Now I'm abit more relieved le, left one more project interview to go then exams le. Hope it'll be over soon before my elf dies on me else the elf won't be the only one that's dead.........I really no strength to carry on, esp after what happened last night..lagi no strength cause he'd been my strength too..thing is he's now gone and my ego's stopping me from asking him to be back. Yes, face is important to me..I've always potrayed an image of a survivor and strength to others..thing is I've no more strength le, I'm so tired of acting strong..I'm not strong enough, please someone help me................................