School started le. Got back 2 paper, so far so good, both passed but I wasn't really just aiming for a pass. Esp for my CKTCS, only got 66%..when I was really aiming for 70% and above. Yupz..Kevin must be real happy cause he told me not to be overconfident. He must be happy I didn't get the A I promised to get for this subject. He just loves puttin me down. I hate him. That's absolutely the worst thing anyone could say to me, especially coming from him. Yesterday's lab test sure die also. Fri is CET lab test. Can't wait. Yay. Get it? I'm being sarcastic. Fuck all lab tests. Fuck TP. Can't wait to get out of school. In or out?
Am I in a relationship or out? I just don't know. The other time we broke up was the 2nd time. When was it? Oh yah 8th July, the day of my last paper. Fuck man. 2nd day went in can't do a single question cause didn't study. Fuck!! Anyway, back to the question. Anyway that night he came down to my house and insisted that I meet him then we went around my neighbourhood and chatted. I almost ended up walking home cause I felt as if he's shifting all the blame to me. Since I've so many faults so why are you still with me? In the end talk until he fainted then I gave in. Stupid me!!! *Bang head*
After the previous 2 breakups, my feelings is like..I don't know how to explain. Just..well..you know..Sianz. It's just so sian lohz! I just can't stop getting angry with him for no reason. Just now we just quarreled. You guys may think it's just small thing and me overeacting. Well, to me it's just how he potray what he feels.
He told me he'd been missing me and all those shit. But after his tuition where he go? Yah to the farewell party of Remus. I dislike Remus, make that hate..ever since Remus introduced a bitch to Kevin. Hate him. So old le still try to act beng. Hate him! Anyway, Kevin told me he'll try to end the thing early and meet me around 1030. I told him he won't cause he'll just continue chatting with his friends and end very late. He told me won't cause he tml got something on in camp and need to sleep early tonight. He called at 10 telling me he end le and asked me if I wanted to join Remus and Larry for coffee afterwards. I was like WTH. You told me you need to sleep early and now you telling me you want go drink coffee? Then I told him no after I heard Remus' name. Kevin said ok, he meet me le then after that then meet them.
Hello? You like said you missed me. How do you show that you miss the person? You'll want to find time to meet that person and spend as much time as possible! How do you show you love a person? By wanting to be with him/her most of the time! Oh wait..I forgot he said that he needs his private space before. Well..I'm tired. I'm so tired of waiting for him. Waiting for him to miss me and actually want to spend more time with me ALONE, tired of actually putting me in first priority instead of just talk, tired of NATO (No Action Talk Only). I'm really so tired of relationship right now. I don't even know my status. He don't even care whether I put single or in a relationship in friendster nor in here. He don't even care so why should I? I'm feeling so bored, so sian, so demoralised, so disappointed..especially disappointed in him. He just don't get it that little things matter so much to me. Every little thing he does..just means so much. Yet he says I'm being over-sensitive, over-bearing and unreasonable for picking a fight over small things he can't fulfill. You can't even do small things and you want to talk about big things? Forget it..I'm tired..I need a break away from everybody. Or rather I need someone who'd think the world of me, someone I can depend on..for love, support, compliments and most importantly, attention.....