Dinner & Dance..Lookin 4wd

Yes. Finally settled my D&D. Yupz. Microelectronics is holding a dinner and dance for all the students graduating in the year 2005. In words, as long as your matric number starts with 02******, you're invited. Please bring your partned who's not from the course too. Haha. Yes. I'm the organiser. Guess where will it be held? Hilton Hotel Singapore. Not Hilton Hotel Novena hor. Grand Ballroom 1A. Don't really look grand to me but compared to Roxy Hotel, it's slightly grander bah. $50 lehz..you pay for quality right? those who're coming, you guys are difficult siah. Want good but only willing to pay $50. this is what most of my organising group says,"Ai sui, ai pi, ai dua liap ni" LoL. Don't get offended lah. We were so stressed up handling this DnD. With stress coming from you guys..and lecturers. So little of you coming. So sad. Then budget cut everyday. Piangz. Stupid lecturers. Sigh. Don't care about me..I'm just on a grumbling streak. It's all settled now, so I actually feel abit relief. Hope more people can come on that day lah huh..remember, it's on 6th April.

My baby..

I remebered Kevin once asked me why is it that I treat frienster so seriously. I don't. He don't understand why I make such fuss when his status was single. He can't understand why I keep asking him to write testimonial for me. Well, maybe it's just another way of giving me security. I mean he's my bf. I'm proud of him. I want the whole world to know that he's mine. Includin those little pesky "flies" and "bees" around him. LoL. Sort of marking my territory. Or rather telling the whole world that I'm his gf. To inform those people who actually cared I guess. LoL. I'm crazy. Haha. Likewise, I hoped he would be proud of me till he actually want to show off to the whole world. Officially together for 7 months and 3 days, there's only 1 photo of us in his friendster. And up to date, only 2 testimonials from him. Yah the things he wrote are nice and sweet. Something I hope really comes from his heart. Met up with him just now. He was just telling me that ZZ had asked him what was the avg span of his past relationships. 8 mths he had replied. ZZ then told him it's time to change a new gf then, since me and him have been together for 7 months+. I teased him and told him it's time to change..and I agree to the change. He didn't want to. Not cause he bu she de..but cause he too lazy to "train" another girl to treat him as well, if not better than I do. Fucker! Argh. LoL. But on the other hand, I LOVE my fucker. My bitch. I love the way he looks at me. I love the way he tires to please me. I love the way he tries to make me happy. I love the way he always know what surprise I'm planning for him. I love the way he sweet talk me. I love the way he drives. I love it when he comes find me in the middle of the night just to see me. He says it's tiring to find another gf now, and it's actually better to find one, stay there forever and get married. Marry? I've no idea.
I'd told him the other day, that marriage is actually not on my mind. I think there's something wrong with me. I? I had always wanted to get married before age of 26! Thing is, after handling the DnD, I've realised how expensive it is to hold a wedding dinner. Furthermore, mine is minimum $550+++ (just {$550 x 1.11}x 1.05 to get the answer) per table. And the food sucks. Yes, I know he's really treating me very well, giving up the opportunity to study overseas because he worries for me too much. Hmmz. I want to settle down too. Thing is..by the time he actually save enough for the marriage and all, I'm already way past my expiry date. Sigh. I don't know lah. Don't really wish to set my expectations too high, else I'll be the one getting hurt again. I had made plans with Jason before, Eggie too..and even Jinlong. See? I do want to get married, even at the age of 17! My god. I was disappointed so many times. It'd actually left a scar. Furthermore, too many flies and bees around him. He attracts too many girls. I can't stop myself from feelin jealous. It's just my nature to feel jealous of the girls around him. This isn't healthy and I really don't know what to do. Hmmz..install the UV light? Haha. Dear God, make me irresistable to him, if you can't do that, make all the girls who are attracted to him FAT AND UGLY WITH REPROBATE PERSONALITIES/CHARACTER! Muahaha..I'm evil. But I'm just protecting what is mine. Call me selfish. That's love to me. Love is something that turns your brain to mush. Mine's turn into slime. LoL

Report..SIP..sucky

Sigh..gonna finish up this blog and go sleep. Fuck care about the report. So what if it's due in another 12 hours? Fuck it. After last Wednesday's presentation to my course manager, Old Wong wasn't too happy with my group. He promised to fail me and Zhiwei for SIP just cause we can't produce the wafers. Fuck him. If it's so easy to produce, do it yourself! We've struggled hard but there's always some hiccups along the way or some bloody un-removable obstacles. Think it's easy? Easy for you to fail us I guess. Argh. I can't seemed to stand any of the lecturers nowadays. Stupid Wong ordered us to come back during holidays. There goes the thought of spending time with dear. Fucking arsehole. And my bday's coming up too! So guo fen! Hmph! What the hell..boh bian lah. Don't wish to fail. Can't wait to go work and start earning my own dough. Can finally go out with dear w/o worrying about money. Sigh. Left 5 days to my SIP..couting down..sigh..go do my report le lah..night everyone. It's 0148 liaoz. Report ah!!!!! Someone save me...