Check up..

Went for a checkup today. My sides still hurt. Could it be UTI? Rin told me UTI will come and go, and fyi it's Urinal Tract Infection. Ouch. Sounds painful? It is. Sharp pain that come as and when it please. Damn. Supposed to meet Sue at 11am Tampines Polyclinic, but I woke up at 1030. Oppz. So change to 1130 instead, then I dilly dally until 1115, decided to take a cab down instead. Reached there 1135, but no sign of Sue. Called her she on her way nia. Piangz. Should have taken a bus instead. Anyways, went in, both of us blur blur, duno where to get the number tag. Walk in walk out, finally found it. Registered liao hey hey! Both of our examination room next to each other nia. The wait was so long!! We sat there till spiders were crawling out of my mouths and ears and flies were buzzing everywhere. Sigh. Yah yah, I'm exagerating. Again. LoL. Anyways, went in to see the doc, Milton or something. He was so damn cocky!! Fucking arsehole. Our conversation were short:
Doc: Why you so long then come in? I press the number very long leh!! (It was less than a min)
Me: Sorry, I was downstairs buyin a drink
Doc: What's wrong with you
Me: Oh I've pains, went to see my family doc, ate medicine, suspected it was UTI, ate antibiotics, but dun seem to work blah blah blah
Doc: When and where and how long has this been going on?
Me: Err, quite a long time liaoz..it comes and goes
Doc: When did you see the doctor and where? (cocky voice)
Me: About 2 weeks ago at my family doctor
Doc: When?!(fucking cocky)
Me: Err I thought I told you, it's 2 weeks ago
Doc: When your last period? You missed it?
Me: Err yes (forgot to tell him mine's irregular)
Doc: Go take a pregnancy test then come back here
Me: ... (he never bothered asking if I engage in sex or not wor! Piangz..scumbag)
After taking the stupid urine test, which tested for 6 stupid stuffs, of which pregnancy is one of them (Sorry peeps, I'm tested negative), I went back to his office. But this time he not so cocky le.
Doc: Ok lie on the bed, are you sure you take the middle portion (of the urine)?
Me: Yes. *mumbles* This not my first time taking urine test lehz..stupid fool
Doc: Ok relax *and he starts pressin on my lower abs*
Me: Ah! *Scrunge up*
Doc: RELAX! (That's easy for him to say, I'm the one feelin the pain)
Me:*Bears with the pain*
Doc: Ok what you don't seem to be in pain
Me: I AM!! Pain lah!!! *Points to where he press* Pain lehz!
Doc: Huh center also pain?
Me: Yes!!! @#$%%^
With that, I got off the bed, and what medicine did he give me lehz? Antibiotics. Again. Sianz. So went pharmacy took the medicine, but Sue was in toilet, so went outside for a smoke. Suddenly I felt very weak, the pain came back..or maybe cause the after effects due to the doctor mishandling me. Sue came out and saw me she was taken aback..I looked so weak. OMG!! LoL. Hate that stupid doc. Have to go back 2 weeks later and take urine test again. Argh.

Half Hr Bus Ride & Lunch

Me and Sue decided to go eat, cause I didn't have breakfast. Went to take 291 cause too lazy to walk. We took the wrong direction. Bravo. Best thing is, we didn't know until the bus loops back to the interchange. Piangz!! By the time we reach opposite school, it was already 30mins since we've gotten on the bus. Steady? We took the wrong side lah. No human is infallible..haha. At least we got to "tour" around Tampines St 42, 32, 43, 81, 82..haha! Called Jacky down to meet up for lunch, since we eating claypot opposite school. Me and Sue betted on how long he'll take to come down cause he really JIN GAO TU. LoL. We're used to it already, so it's ok lah. We ate our lunch, shared a pot of claypot rice, had a stick of ciggy and 2 mouthful of our drinks before Jacky appeared. Lied to Jacky that I was pregnant, my medicine was to stop my pregnancy, and he believed. Wanted to carry on but was scolded by Sue coz she say she's very pantang, told me not to continue. Orhz. Had a few chat, then Jacky had to see Mr Wong. Sue and I went to change the batt on her watch, bought some plasters and she went back to sch while I went to meet Zhiwei at Tampines.

Interview

Me and Zhiwei went all the way to Parklane, for a job interview. You interested? There's still alot of vacancies lehz. Details please call my mobile. I'll tell you more into detail. Went in, filled in another 2 more forms, after 3 sweets and a short briefing, we were out of there. The sweets were free! LoL. Jokin lah. Decided to go home, and we bought tidbits to eat on the bus trip back. First time me and Zhiwei chatted so much. Normally we'll discuss school work, gossip here and there. Today really chatted alot. Sigh. Zhiwei's cinderella, hope you'll patch with him. He's really a nice kid lah. And he really loves you alot. It's hard to find a guy like him nowadays, he won't even give other girls a look. With him sure feel secure de lohz. Sigh. Went home, decided to pain my nails and ate my medicine. Know why? Stupid antibiotics must eat 1hr BEFORE food. Stupid rule. Think I was too tired le, so I feel asleep. When I woke up, my mom already home. She bought the Jap ball with squid inside one..then I slack the whole night.

Attitude Dad

My dad really attitude lohz. He's always complaining that we..or rather I don't talk to him. So I tried asking him a question but very attitude. Cause the whole family supposed to go China at end of next month de, but I didn't want to go. My mom was interested, but dad didn't tell her which part of China. So I asked him.
Me: Pa the trip go where huh?
Dad: *Thinks awhile* China
Me: Duh China so big! I also know China but where?
Dad: You ask for what? Go China means go China lah!
Me: *HOT* You are not answering the question lohz! Stop complaining that ppl don't talk to you, cause you're giving attitude that's why I don't talk to you!
Dad: Whatever lah! Whatever you say..yeh you're always right. (Fucking arsehole is high..damn him)
Sometimes hate my dad alot lohz. But I know I can always count on him if my funds are going low. LoL. Maybe that's why I don't love him bah. Whatever.

Confused+Jealous+Insecured = Love?

Sigh. I'm crying le. Don't know it's crying because of him or because my sides hurts too much. After thinking awhile, I believed it was a little of both. Why cry because of him lehz? After all he treats me so good (sometimes), he cares alot about me (not today) and he's always worrying about me. Well..it's simple enough. He don't get jealous, not even a teensy weensy little bit when I meet guys (he's confident in himself and he trusts you?), he breaks promises made to me most of the times (slip of mind? Accidentally?) and he has too many girls around him (you too have many guys around you..). Come on lah huh, ever since I went back poly, yes it's true. I know more guys and GALS included, compared to during ITAS days, but please, my batch 02' batch of guys mostly born in 85, 84, 83..rarely will you get to see 79, 80, 81 or even 82 guys lohz. I say RARELY, not don't have, but RARELY. Those older ones also treat me like meimei..cause they're attached. They're NOT interested in me. The only guy I know should be interested in me right now should be Jason bah..and maybe Wenhui nia. NO MORE!! Him lehz? Always got this girl keep buggin him. It's time I bite her. *GNAW* Argh! I'm starting to feel jealous!! Cannot!! Sigh. That girl always find him de, and she's unattached. Always lookin for him, always asking him out, always calling him. Buey ji dong one lehz. When my guy frens are attached, I usually siam them lohz, until they have the time to call me. Argh. Ok ok I know I'm over-reacting, I'm jealous!!!! *1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10..breathe out* I suddenly feel very insecured. Really. He really treats his friends very nice lohz. And when a girl is down, you can't be too nice to her else she'll fall for you de..which I believe is the reason why she keeps calling him lohz. ARGH!! I don't like this feeling of jealousy!! Cannot! It makes me old!!
Many times in this relationship I've felt like giving up. As in really ending all these shit lohz. Ok I'm not trained to be kuang rong, letting my bf meet up with other girls and shit. I'm just not trained like that. Neither were my ex-es. *Don't compare* Hard not to isn't it? The only thing he wins Egg is that he always makes me laugh and smile and does silly stuffs for me now and then. That's all. Egg always sends me home, even if he no car..up to my doorstep, he don't expect me to treat him eat, he don't smoke my ciggies, he don't talk to girls, and of course don't go out with them, he don't sleep when I'm over, in short I feel rather secured. Maybe that's why I used to want to marry him. Cause he'll never go out to fool around, that I can count on. Difference is, I never had the same trust in Egg that I have in Kev. I trust Kev alot, goodness knows why also, esp since there's girls crawling around him most of the time. Trust is one thing, being jealous is another. I can't stop myself from being jealous right? Furthermore I used to be a jealous freak, a green eyed monster 24/7 for the past duno how many donkey years. It's due to jealousy that I left Jason too. I don't like this jealousy thing. It makes me feel so immature, getting jealous over a simple platonic friendship between my bf and his female friend. Sigh. Long time never jealous until like that le. I must be crazy le. Think I'm too deeply in love, time to let myself out abit..don't wish to get hurt in the end again. As Jolin's song goes "爱一个人别太认真你受伤的眼神 令人心疼 没有一个人非要另一个人才能过一生 你又何苦逼自己面对伤痕." How true..nobody is indispensable in this world, I don't live for anybody but myself. Putting too much love in a r/s might bring me hurt in the end. Guess it's time to put lesser love bit by bit. Getting jealous is a way of gettin hurt already..and I don't like it. I don't like gettin jealous. Seriously. Hate that feeling. I love him, yes I do. I like the time spent together, I felt very much in love. All friends around me can see that I'm happy in this r/s. Or could what Erin said be true? Hope not. Choy! I remembered HL asking me if Kev was the guy I love most and among my other ex, is he the one that treats me the best. I replied her that this is the r/s that I'm happiest in, but he's not the guy who treats me the best. Whatever.

Dont worry friends..

What's wrong with me? Crazy girl. Stop thinking of all these shit and concentrate on your papers! You've 3 sup papers for goodness sake! Stop thinkin about him..*nags*. Sigh. Don't worry peeps, I'll be ok in a few days de, I just need time and my own personal space for me to think thru things awhile and I'll be alright. I'm old enough to know what's right and what's wrong. And peeps, don't worry abt my sup, I'm the one who should be worrying (hear that mom?), not you guys k? I'll take care of myself de. Furthermore, I'll be working soon, there's no time for me to get jealous. Maybe the r/s will go stale, cause no time to accompany him and all those shit..but at least I'll still have you guys right? You guys are/were always there for me when I needed you guys. Thank you.