Grad Ceremony (14th Aug)

Well, today finally last day le! Couldn't wake up at all lohz. Slept at 2+am and woke up at 6am. Reached school at 715am and was feeling so fucking tired. Helped out with the same stuff as the previous day, except today was more fun. Today didn't want to wear heels, but boh bian. When I wore the shoes, my legs didn't want to move at all. It's that painful. Go school I bought a bottle of mineral bottle cause my bottle still with Kev. Had a briefing this morning and cause the people helping out today is lesser than yesterday, we were told that we could be very busy. Lunch was at KFC, with more than 10 people going. Got Carol, Jolin, Meng Lei, Theresa, May Thu, Michelle, Me, Eugene, Jacky, Patrick, Wee Pin, Suefong, Huiling, Jianyu and Han Jie. Woah! Haha! Lunch wasn't too bad I guess. Was feeling abit attitude at KFC. Wanted to exchange a table of 4 with a girl who was sitting at a table of 2. She like don't want don't want, then don't know how to tell Huiling. Made Huiling wait for her answer. I was angry lohz. Coz that means I've to get an extra chair and sit in between the 2 tables. I told Huiling it's ok de, I don't mind sitting there. I said very loudly that my hair is very long, ya know what that means? Just imagine they eat and I swing my hair over their food. LoL. I don't mind my hair getting oily and all, coz I only have to wash it. But their food, LoL, they have to pay for it. LoL. Take that. That's for messing with my friends/me. Maybe we ordered too much and there were 3 packets of mashed potato and 2 coleslaw left over. LoL. We ta pao for Shan Shan they all. Went back and we were late for the afternoon briefing. Was feeling so tired after the GOH entered that I sat on the floor and slept. Very very tired. After the GOH left, I kept running here and there to keep myself awake. At last, the graduation ended and all of us were like so happy, giving each other a high five. After debrief, we all clapped for the efforts done. LoL. Finally can go rest le...heng CCA points got 10 more marks..else I'll kill myself. LoL.

Rin's Bday

Met up with Erin today at 6+pm. Supposed to meet up at 5:30 de..but only Jiawei was there. Went walk walk with Jiawei. He bought a MD player for 100+ and I was thinking should I buy that for dear, but dear either drive to work or sleep when on bus/mrt. See how first lah huh. First time go Fish & Co. eat. Atmosphere rather nice, except the music was a little loud. Patrick commented that it was as though F&C had moved into Chinablack. The music was that loud. Eat halfway the place kena blackout. Our whole group was so happy, me included cause the aircon was blowing at my legs. I ordered a corriander catch, and a glass of passion fruit. The fish wasn't that bad except it has no taste. Had to add alot of salt. DAMN! Erin treat us (Patrick, Zheng Jie, Jiawei and me) to dinner. Total of $100+! After dinner, we went down to PS and slacked. Slacked for the longest time ever! From around 7+pm till 11+!! Damn that was long. Took some pictures. Long time no see Erin le. LoL. Happy bday girl!

Greatest Mom

Had no money to take cab home and iB was down, so called mom around 4am and told her to wait for me with the cash for cab fare below our block. Mom was asleep and she woke up to wait for me. Reached somewhere near Jln Tenaga and called mom, and she came down with the money. She didn't scold and nag, just asked me why so late then reach home. I was rather angry with Kev and I told my mom a lie. I told her I was at Serangoon(true) and I quarreled with Kev(quite true). My mom told me to forgo this relationship. I know she wants the best for me and I know I should study and not be bothered by relationship, but what she don't know is I've already given half my heart to Kev. Went to bathe straight away and really, mom is the greatest. She didn't ask me about the ciggs in my bag and she didn't nag a single word. I've promised her this shall be the last time I come home so late, and it is this promise that I will keep. Wanted to thank her for today, but just couldn't bring myself to say it. Hereby, I want to thank you mom, I love you. Thanks for everything.

Him

So pissed with him. This morning was still ok, chatted with each other and all at 7am. Afternoon, he went home to standby for recall, and I was rather busy myself. Who knows he really that sway, kena recalled. Boh bianz, that's NS. He was supposed to join me, Rin and company for coffee after dinner. He keeps sending msg that showed as if he didn't want to come. In the end he came and I was happy, cause firstly, I felt left out in the group and 2ndly, I missed him. Came over and slacked and when Jacky and company came, he ji tao /ignore me. Kept talking about guys stuff, NS lah, cars lah and other stuffs. *Sianz* He brought me, Jacky, Sue and Mark(Jacky's God bro) over to selegie and we tried the turkish pipe. Don't know what you call that, but in chinese is "shui yan". He was tired and we left the place around 1+am. He saw his campmates at Parklane and I saw Henry. Intro Henry to Kev but Kev didn't intro me to his campmates. Anyway there were too many of them. LoL. Sue shared cab with us and had to sit infront due to his request. I was like, feelin so paiseh to leave her alone there. In cab he keep wanting to tear off the TVmobile sticker. Kiddish. Reached his house le, he went to bathe. He PROMISED to send me home today. I went over and he did set the alarm clock to go off at 3+am. Alarm did go off, but we haven't sleep yet. He slept at 3+ and I wanted to go home. Kept waking him up but he like can't be bothered. This is not the first time le. First time go, he tired I can go off alone it's ok, 2nd time like this also ok..but it's like almost everytime lohz. Sianz. Everytime go his house he won't send me back de. At least no matter how bastard Egg was, he made it a point to send me home every single time I go his house. Basically I was pissed. Pratically I was angry. Theoratically I was fuming with rage. I didn't have the money to take cab and he also no money. Thought of paying with debit card but internet banking was down. Damn! I sat at his house thinking of a solution till 4am. In the end I had to turn to my mom. When I told him I'm going, he can't even be bothered. Sianz. I know you're tired but please give me some better response can? Argh. Pissed. I still am! I'm damn fucking tired too k. *Angry* Don't know why but the feeling of being used comes flooding back when I was on the cab. Kena used by him...I feel fucked up. I'm angry and confused. Argh!!!!! Angry angry!!

Sleepy Sunday

Sunday liaoz..I remembered I told Jacky yesterday that I will sleep till 8pm today. If it's not 8pm, I won't wake up. That's what I did. I woke up at 8pm. Steady? But I was so tired out these few days. Now also feel like sleeping liaoz. LoL. Wake up ate dinner, watch abit of tv then sat down at my comp from 8+ till now. Dear tried to find me the whole day. My hp cranky again mah. LoL. He called my house twice and my hp loads of time. LoL. He knows I'm angry. In msn, he asked me if he really need to leave me alone. He's sorry and promised to give me a surprise later. I was like what surprise? Since he was coming down, I told him to bring my bottle. That's the surprise. Diaoz. Thought what. Thought got flowers. LoL. He told me he'd be here before 11pm, and I was chatting with Weiqiang on msn till 11+. He lied to me again. Disappointed. Don't know why but my heart ached. In the end he did come down and I sneaked out of my house. First time I sneak out and my parents didn't notice. Guess they were also tired with all the waiting up for me. Oppz. Took a smoke with Kev and he massaged me. Was feeling much better then. I can't be angry with him too long, see him all the anger also gone le. Why does he have this effect on me leh? Nah..too tired to think, guess I'll go sleep le..tata..