School

Today paper at 2pm, was supposed to reach at 1:30, but went opp school to meet Barry to pass him the club funds. By the time I went back to school, already 1:40pm. Still have to go locker take my books, piangz, by the time I met up with Zhiwei, already 1:45. Didn't really revise TCS cause my book was in school the whole time. How clever can I be? LoL. Was rather disappointed when the test is over, cause I didn't finish the whole paper. There was alot of things to write lehz. My hands were like so tired! I wrote about 4 pages(if I've to complete it, it would have been at least 5 pages) and my hands were practically not listening to me after 45min of writing, my handwriting was like do damn fucked up. Eee yucks! So ugly! LoL.
Met up with Wenhui after my paper. He so kelian! Waited for me since 10am. LoL. Asked him what he do from 10-3pm, he said he SNS, stand and stand, sit and stand, sit and sit. Was supposed to meet up for lunch de, but I had a late breakfast and he was too hungry so he went to eat liaoz. In the end we went BB tea shop and chatted, play chinese chess. I sucked at it. Played 3 rounds, and I like only won 1 round, unfairly de. I removed all his soldiers (bing), cannons (pao), car (che), horse (ma). He left with King (jiang), Bishop (shi) and Elephant (xiang). LoL. 4 moves and I won. LoL. Went back school, but I missed Huiling, Sue and et al, so went to their lab and saw only Huiling and JY. Huiling rather stressed up, rather frustrated. Talked to her for awhile then I went library to find Hong Ye, Theresa and Zhiwei. Told them I won't be studying with them today, then Hong Ye said alot of suaning things. He said that they waited for me so long liaoz, then I come then say I won't be studying with them. LoL. Qi Hua!! KNS. Met up with Sue, Jacky and WL. Was rather hurt by what WL said today(what else is new?) cause the way he says things are too straightforward. Wasn't in the best mood today, and he gives me this kinda shit. Almost wanted to just get up and leave. Can see that Jacky keeps trying to change subject, so I just followed suit and chat with Jacky. Jacky left liao then I chatted with Sue. Duno why but other ppl suan I dun feel hurt, maybe it's the choice of words and WL's facial expressions that made me dulan ba. Ppl suan, ppl smile, he suan he gives a serious face. Piangz..almost couldn't take it. Argh!! LUN!!! In the end lun lah, then was better at the end, laughing and joking. I can forgive ppl fast de. Thanks Kevin, for teaching me to forgive and forget..and oh yah, peeps, sorry but my hp is cranky! Anything just message me..forgive me if you've tried to call me..LoL

Him

Morning he called, and we didn't chat. Wasn't in the mood to chat, I just wanted to watch my TV. Cause got my favourite guy on TV, Ma Jun Wei. He called 2nd time and I was about to bathe, so didn't chat. 3rd time he called I told him I'm meeting Wenhui for lunch. He was jealous. His whole tone changed. I was like, piangz, jealous for what? I messaged him a few things before I ran out of things to say. It goes like this:
Me: Dear, when I say wenhui waitin 4 me doesn't mean that he's waitin for me 2 b his gf, he's just waitin 4 me 2 have lunch coz he finish his paper at 10
Him: Orh ..how do you want me to react
Me: I don't know, anything that is closest to what you're feeling ba
Him: ... insecurity?
Me: why do u feel insecure? (I was puzzled, shouldn't I be the one feeling insecured?)
Him: Maybe cause we didn't meet up that often
Me: How to meet you? I'm having common tests now..
Him: Nvm.. i'm just being unreasonable
Seriously, I don't know how to reply..I typed and retype my message to reply him, but in the end I just gave up. I really don't know what to message back. *Sigh* Just now he told me he's going back camp tonight to stay in. I guess he was just too bored. At least he go back camp and stay in got things to do, won't "hu si luan xiang" ba. He's making me very confused with what I want now. But today, like the previous day, I just want to fling with him. I don't like getting hurt. YX, if you're reading this, just to tell ya I don't like getting hurt. I know I'll be hurt in the end, and I don't want it to happen..just give me more time to think things thru k...miss ya....