Family
Yesterday was sitting in the living room watching TV when my parents started arguing. Yesterday was the first time I heard my mom admit where my savings of 6k had gone to. My dad had run up a huge debt that he can't clear, and my mom had to resort to using my savings. I was really hurt, being the only child and having my parents hide the truth from me all these years. All these while I thought my mom used my savings to invest in some shares, but I was wrong. All these while I was wrong. My dad then complained that my mom only spend very little per month, so being angry, I shouted at him that all that he'd ever pay are the HP bills and internet bills and my pocket money. The sofa he was seated in yesterday, the shorts he wore everyday, the food he puts in his mouth, the clothes he wore out everyday, the shoes he wears, the TV he watches everyday without fail are all paid by my mom. Even the house he lives in is paid by my mom. What had he ever done to make me like him? NOTHING!!

Him
Today might be the last day I'll be blogging about him. All is over. I'd enough of going thru each day with him without a status. Told him that Charmain asked me not to wait for him and he told me not to wait too. Was really too numb to feel anything, hurt until too numb liaoz. So I acted strong and said I wasn't even waiting. I told him since he wants me to go ahead and find a bf, I won't call him or msg him W.E.F tonight. He thought I was joking and said that he won't too, but I told him I'm serious. Think he stunned and he said ok. We ended the phone call and he messaged me. Our msg conversation:
Him: Im sorry if i took u ever so lightly ... I dun wan to lose u ... But i cant be selfish n tell u that i love u but i cant start a relationship with u ...
Me: dun use love cause u're confused and dun use love when you just want to make me feel better
Him: Sorry ... Tc ... Gd luck with ur term test ...
Me: u'd made me feel used and cheap..and i never know your feelings towards me..never will know
Him: I seriously like u ... N i do think of u ...
Me: I seriously duno what you want..i tried to accommodate you liaoz and what i get back is naught
Him: I oso dunno wad i wan ...
Seriously I don't know how to reply him. I'm burning with anger and pieces of my heart's tearing up, together with the memories I had with him. In any case WL u're reading this, just shut up. You'd never been in love so you can't give any comments. Yours is just a crush, when you'd been in love and been dumped before then you come give comments about playing with fire. I just want a stable relationship right now, I don't wish to be a cheap bitch or slut anymore! I feel so down, after term tests I sure go drinking de. I'm so farking confused now and I felt so used, so cheap, so stupid, so foolish, so heartbroken...