School
Sigh, today no mood to do anything in school. Come school steamed steamed de. Stupid Barry standing behind me don't know see what. Go CKTCS lab this morning didn't do anything at all. To cut things short, I wasnt in a good mood this morning. Was rather frustrated over some things that happened the night before. Sigh, went lunch then went smoking at reservoir. Sue told me that Andrew(my lec) was wearing No. 4 today. Too bad I missed it. He must have looked cute, haha! Slacked the whole day today lohz, very shag and disappointed and sad and alot of mixed feelings. Don't really like today..
John's ex-gf came today, bringing along her son. The baby was so cute!! Guy somemore. See him shit and all. Can see that John really wished that the son was his. I wanted to carry the baby but he's only 2 mths old. Scared lah, so keep playing with him..he's so cute....
Had a talk with Mr Wong(course manager) cause he see me like very sad and stressed up. Told him I am stressed lah, stressed with school work, club, family and love life. Wait a minute, I don't even have a love life to begin with. I'm just that fucked up. He told me to solve the problems with my family first, told me to have a nice chat with my father. Maybe I will later ba, cause he's not home yet. As for love life, Wong told me that sometimes when u like someone doesn't mean that you've to have him totally. Say very easy, maybe that's what I'll do. Just let him have his way till he can sort out his feelings. As for school, everything lies in me, just see whether I want to make the effort or not. I had always thought that my CM very naggy, but he enlightened me with just a 20min talk. Thanks Mr Wong..
Just now was at TCC bus stop, took a cab back with WL. I was smoking and it was rather hot, so we sat under a sign board. A van full of POM was drivin past me slowly and 1 of the man stuck his head out and shouted,"SMOKING AH?" in Chinese. Piangz, none of his business. WL looked at me then I told him I don't know them. I've alot of friends but those are definitely not my friends. It's like WTH..damn it man. Then we got on a cab, WL told the uncle Kaki Bukit, where I was living, then the uncle like blur blur. Told him I living 600+ there, Bedok Reservoir. Saw James et al, James was taking the cab infront of me, so I wound down the window and shouted,"Uncle, hurry up lah, your taxi blocking my way!" WL was laughing lohz. Our cabbie abit CH also, keep asking me where I live and all, so I told him the market there, then he started chatting abt the market. Aiyoh, I'm uncle killer lehz, it's not just a name k, I've things to prove de. Why I always attract uncles and not guys my age leh? Sigh..uncles, don't try to be funny lah. Old cow thinking of eating fresh grass, if your house no mirrors, public toilets have, public toilets don't have then take a piss and look at your reflection. Think I'll be interested in you? No way Jose!!

Him
I've mixed feelings about him. Don't know what I want from him. Really mixed up. Part of me was really disappointed that he didn't really tell me his true feelings. Part of me was glad that I'm not in a r/s with him right now. So pek cek..damn!! Sigh, was told to carry on flinging with him or give him more time. But I don't wish to be a lost soul anymore, like don't have an aim or something. As I've said, I'm like a lost soul trying to find a place to call my own, and I though I've found it, who knows that it was never to be....