12 Jul 2004, Mon (Rainy)

Sigh sigh..today again steamed steamed stoned stoned pass one day. Today kena hit by lecturer, stupid biatch!! Was playing with the circuit today coz it kena shorted liaoz, then she come hit me coz my stupid machine keep making the "tsa tsa" sound. Piangz..she could have just told me lohz! Hit me siah! KNN..pain pain!! Then I went lunch, and was actually harassed by bees! Irritating leh!! This is the only time where my frens appreciate my smoking habit. Lol!! The bees did go away after i lit my first ciggie, and only 1 or 2 tend to fly around us from time to time. One of the bee after "smokin" was actually so high it flew into a saucer of chilli sauce! Stupid bee..who's ur mama? Went back lecture and was 30min late, so i just sat behind the wall in the lt, far from the lecturer's eyes and just played with my hp. After that, the last lecture, me and my frens were so bored that we asked each other "qian bian wen da ti". So lame!! Too bored lah..can't blame us. Then I went to find Eugene, Elton and CY slack. Kena bullied over there..hit myself also..stupid moron!

Him

Well, today din talk to him much, but he was down with sore throat and was thinking of going over to take care of him today if he got mc. Too bad lah, his MO think that he's fit enough for light duty. We exchanged alot of sms today, was quite happy with the last one though..
Me (1713hrz): It's raining liao so be careful when you drive home today k?
Him (1717hrz): I nt driving ...Hehe ... Thanx dear ...
I'm gettin really confused abt my feelings towards him..maybe it's just a crush and maybe it's not..but did he have to give me the feeling as if i'm in a quicksand? The more I want out, the deeper I go. Especially after yst night when I asked if he has other lovers other than me. To my question he replied no, he only has 1 lover and that he's very committed. He has 1 gf, 1 wife, 1 mistress, 1 lover..etc.(1 of each only, so very committed) *LAME* Then he stopped laughing and said to me that seriously, there's no other lover in his life right now and there's only me. Yst PMS then he said the sweetest thing to me. This is the conversation:

Him: y pms now ?
Me: duno
Him: u wan me to hug u ?
Me: just dun have the mood to do anything
Him: *hugz* (he's tryin to b lame..as usual)
Him: comon ..
Him: u're the sweetest person i've known that has alwiz been there for me ..
Me: yah right.......
Him: really lah
Him: sometimes i say these things onli once
Him: so better treasure it ok ?
Me: okies

Ain't he the sweetest thing? Wait? What am I saying!! I'm just having a crush right now..just heck care me..I want to be happy again and not tied down by a stupid crush.....