Sat burned.. Friends Erin Suefong Jacky Huiling Charmain Wenhui Andre Kevin Xiujun, Jac, Jasca, Weiqi, Pefe, Mixi Weiqiang Weiliang That's All
Argh!! Sat burnt!! Sob. I'm stuck at home the whole day! Ok not really whole day cause afternoon got go out 10min and just now 2hrs. Argh!! But think I'm not the only one cause there's 22 ppl in my msn right now. Muahaha, their sat oso burnt like me. Sob. I hate exams. Why go out 10min nia lehz? Went down for a smoke with Kev. Why 2 hrs then? Went out with Wenhui for a drink. Drink teh-tarik. Damn I love the teh tarik there. Think he knows that, cause I was late for 10min, then reach there got drink liaoz. Muahahaha. Chatted abt almost everything. Chat about our sch work, our workload, my relationship with Kev, our friends, our dreams, problems faced in a r/s and hypothesis when in a r/s like seein ur other half walkin infront of u with another person, behavin intimately. LoL. See how boh liao we were? But it was comfy chatting all this sort of thing. Muahaha. Told him what I want in a bf, then what kind of gf I am. Chatted about responsibilities and friends also, and funnily, when chatting abt friends, the first person I thought of was Weiliang. Funny right? We shall discuss more later. LoL. 2nd person I thought of was Sue. Didn't chat abt Erin cause rarely go out with her, and she's always in safe hands, and nothing much for me to worry about. She's old enough lah, huh rin? LoL. Somemore got so many guys to look after her for me. My da lao po. LoL. We've come a long way. We knew each other in P5, but actually got close after PSLE. As in really close. Go each other's place and sit, chat..even up till now. We have our fair share of fights and quarrels, the worst quarrel ended our friendship for months. Ok I admit it was my fault. Why I go admit? Coz frankly speaking, I do miss her. I missed the bitching time, missed her hookin my arms when we go out, missed shoppin and crappin with her. Up till now, she's the only friend that lasted so long and still can tahan my temper. LoL. She's one friend that cared enough to sms me when I disappear for a long period of time. She's one friend that stood by me no matter what other ppl says. She's one friend that went thru thick and thin with me. She's one friend that's proud of me even though I'm such a failure. Woah. She's just too good. Sometimes I feel as if I'm not good enuff for her. She's one friend that knows my whole family and vice versa. She's one friend that whenever I see Pooh Bear/Piglet I would think of her. She's one friend I'm most proud of. She's one friend that stood beside me when I'm down, lifted me up and got me back on track. Steady right? That's why we lasted so long. Even with all the quarrels and such, she's one friend that's willing to forgive and forget and wiling to be best buddies with me again. No such things as start off as normal friends, once she forgives me we went back being best friends. You're da best Erin!! Remember, no matter how tired I am, no matter how busy I am, no matter how slack I am or how angry, you'll always be my best friend and I'll always be there for you when you need me. Understand? That goes out to Suefong also. Understand? You guys saw me when I was invisible to the rest of the world, both of you believed in me. In return of your friendship, I'm giving any little time I have to be with you guys when in time of need. Love ya guys.
Suddenly in the mood to describe my feelings towards each of the guys I love and willing to do things for. In words, ppl in my black book. LoL. Not many ppl have the chance to be in my black book. Why? Cause I set very high expectations for my friends, even higher standards than I choose bf. LoL. I feel this to be a long blog. LoL. If ya don't see ya name there, well, all is not lost. You're still my friend. I call anyone whom I know a friend. I can dislike you but no matter what you're still a friend. A fren doesn't mean I have to like you. LoL.
Hmmz..said so much about her liaoz. No need to elaborate much right? My best friend for so many years. How many of you guys can go around telling your present classmates/friends/collegues that you have a best friend and she/he was your primary school classmate? Close to zero I guess. LoL. Well, I'm proud to say Erin's my number 1 fan, my only fan. LoL. And I'm her fan too. I'm proud of her!!
Wasn't really close to her in yr 1 sem 1. It was until of her accident then we got close. Coz I'm always concerned (in other words, kpo lah) about my frens de. Still remembered the day she came school find me when I was having remedial lessons, and we sat outside and chatted the whole hour! She told me all her problems and I sat there quietly, listening to her. That was the day we started getting close. Was quite touched when she thanked me for being her friend. Sue, don't try to run away cause I remembered SOMEONE saying this to me, "XY, I hope no matter what, in the future even when we don't keep in contact, that I'll never be removed from your black book." So touched. Don't worry, I won't de. Anyways, I treat you as my best bud. You should know that from the way I treat you ba. I'm always there for you de..just like you're always there when I needed you. You always know when I'm having a bad day or something's wrong with me. You always know how to make me feel better, even if it's just a honey stick. LoL. You pamper me alot ah! Haha! Thanks girl for all you've done. Thanks for being there. I really don't know how to thank you. You'll always be my lesbian partner! LoL. I'm proud of you too! Even though sometimes you can be even crazier than me. That's why you need me to be there, and that's why I need you to be there. Remember white tiger!!
Jacky, one friend that I can always count on to have a last minute TCS (talk cock session) at anywhere. He's very nice, although sometimes abit long winded. LoL. He's there to listen to me complain about Kev, about Erin (tht time when we quarrel) and in short, he's nice lohz! A guy I'm worried about sometimes when he's down, cause..don't know why also. LoL.
Someone whom I'm very worried about, cause she's the youngest girl among our clan. Our clan got who lehz? Eugene, Jacky, Sue, HL, me and last time got WL de. Something happened. Don't ask. Huiling haven't really seen the evil side of human in society yet, so I'm more protective over her. Esp after that incident with another guy in her course. I treat her more like a meimei lohz. I want her to be happy and not hurt, so always will try to protect her. Yah yah, I know I always bully her. But come on lohz, it was just for fun. LoL. She's what she is today all thanks to me and Sue. Right HL? LoL. To guys out there who wants to harm her, fuck off. Try to mess with me first. You mess with her, means you're messin with me. Understood?
My own beauty queen. LoL. Hey Miss SG semi-finalist! LoL. This girl was the one who taught me to be attitude de. Guess what? It works. Haha! My AP girl with looks that can kill. Always there to scold me when I do something stupid. Never console me one, she just starts scolding and naggin. Can't stand her. LoL. She's the only friend that's younger than me and scolds me. Piangz. Very chor lor also. Typical ah lian. Muahaha! But I love her siah! She always wake me up from my depression with her scoldings. She's young, small sized, short but is one girl that's willing to share everything she has with me. That includes job lobangs, money (she treats when I'm broke), her food..everything lah! Stupid girl. Someone who knows what she wants. It's all thanks to her that I'm with Kev. Right girl? Thanks for talking to him. So long no see her..wonder how's she's gettin along. That's what I love about true friends. You need not keep in touch everyday and contact each other, but knowin the other party will b there when you in need.
Although I got close to him only recently, after knowin him since kindergarten, he's another one friend whom I can call and meet in just 10min flat. He's always game for a cup of coffee or just a chat in the middle of the night or early in the morning. Always feel very comfortable with him. His shoulders very nice to lie on also. Very comfy. LoL. Only lie on it once, when I was rather high. He's there for me 24/7 de. I can call him anytime and we'll meet up at the usual place, drinkin teh tarik and chattin nonsensical things. Maybe it helps cause he just live 5min walk from my house. Haha! If I'm out in the middle of the night having a drink, you'll know who I'm with.
Andre..my darling. LoL. Nah..he's just a very very good friend who dotes on me alot. Although busy, he still tries his best to make time for me. That day we just went out and chatted about the past. It was so much fun! He's a very very sweet guy. The sweetest guy I know that's willing to do silly/stupid stuffs for me. Last time lah. Now now, now ppl got gf liaoz, and very dedicated to her somemore. Sigh. When with him I'm always happy de. Talk about alot of stupid stuff, make myself relaxed. He's one guy I can't bear to see him leave when he went overseas to study. Stupid right? I couldn't let go years ago, but now see him so happy I also happy lah. Tell ya guys a secret, I used to have feelings for him. Yepz, but didn't want to hurt him cause I wasn't ready for settling down then. Sigh. Wasted.
MY BF!! Of course he's my bestest friend right now. But he can't be compared to Sue and Erin of course. He's the first one I always go to when I have a good news or when I'm stressed and in need of someone to console me. Back when we were friends, he used to talk things out with me, analysin my problems and give me solutions. He's there to console me. He and Charmain was the reason I chose to breakup with Egg. LoL. Both of them talked sense into me and I saw I wasn't goin anywhere in the relationship, so I broke up with him. They allowed me to see what I really want. And now? Well, he's always there for me, except the times when he's sleepin. He does little things for me that other ppl think are insignificant, but deep down inside, it means alot to me. Like sending my frens home, ditching his friends just to be with me alone, buying me things in the middle of the night to cheer me up (he bought me a slice of tiramisu cake yst at 2am!!), always worryin abt my studies, my health, always crappin with me and playin with me. I feel like a million dollars whenever I'm with him. Wait, make that a billion..no, make it a zillion! LoL. He gives me surprises. Although I feel insecure sometimes (make that most of the time..LoL), but whenever when we're together alone, all that negative thoughts are gone. Don't talk about him liaoz, else I write one whole night also can't finish. Love ya dear.
Xiujun is one girl from T11, IT/ICP AY99/00 that I'm closer to. I'm closer to her even though she's only my lecture mate! Maybe cause she's an aries like me! The rest are my buddies who never fails to remember my bday and never fails to celebrate with me, no matter how busy they are. And me? I'm the boh sim one. I always failed to celebrate bday with them. Sorry guys! Mixi is our mother hen siah, always naggin at me to study. But she's one that I respect the most. She's mature and I always listen to her de. She's one friend that I feel remorse whenever she scolds me for skippin lectures/tut/labs and failing my subjects. She has her tender side too. She's one girl I look up to. Pefe, well, my gamin partner during IT/ICP days. Known her since sec 2, but got close only in poly. She, me and Weiqi always go gamin at cyber de. We're always chatting about games and such. Very strong girl. Pei fu her also. Steady pom pipi. Weiqi lehz? A girl whom I can count on to crap with me. Suaning session is always on with them around. Target: Mixi/Xy. Jac is da jiejie whom I turn to when I've relationship probs. She's one that listen and advice me what to do. Her advice works too! No wonder some ppl married liaoz. LoL. Missed ya guys! Let's go out and party!!
Ok ok..so I'd a crush on him before. So what? That was so history liaoz. Yah I know it lasted 3 years. Still..it was the past liaoz. My ah gong. Another friend who always scolds me whenever I'm not doing the right things. He's one guy I'm very worried about coz he's in Aust now. Nobody takes care of him. He's another sweet guy wor. So much so that Weiqi they all thought he likes me also. LoL. He never fails to call me whenever he's back in SG and never fails to know when I'm feelin down. We always entertainin each other in the middle of the night de. 5 yrs ago like that, now also like that. Funny thing is we don't entertain each other in the morning. LoL. Always late at night. Both bored mah. Nothing much to say about him except he rocks! He'll always be my buddy siah! Thanks ah gong! Missed ya!
Well, he used to be in my list de. Until something happened. I stood by him in the hour of need and I joined Atomic partly cause of him and Jacky. Another part, well..as they say is history. LoL. He's one guy that stands by his point and is very determined. Maybe cause the things he said to me are too hurting. Why hurting you ask? Cause I treat him more than a friend, he's in my list. Anything he does, anything he says will affect me in one way or another. Like that time we were at fullerton and he says I'm not mature enough to get married. Fine. I changed my thoughts of gettin married. The present me won't get married until after 28. Because he's in my list, I take everything he says seriously and to heart. Even a single criticism cuts thru my heart till I couldn't take it anymore. But he don't seemed to understand. Received something from him as a form of apology. Was rather touched and was willing to forgive..until I know from Mr Andrew that somehow it was Andrew who had convinced him to do that. Sigh. Saded. Really broke my heart. But recently, my feelings towards him keep fluctuatin. Sometimes I want to befriend him again, and be like last time, going out and chattin with him and such. But sometimes, I can't stand the way he pours icy water on my dreams. Yes I know I can't fulfill it, I know I don't have the minimal requirement to get what I want, but as a friend, please, give me moral support instead of tellin me the truth. Believe in me. That's all I ask. Because I hang onto your every word. I was there for him but he couldn't see me. When I left then he realised my presence, but couldn't be bothered to retain me. It really hurts alot. Liang if you're reading this, I want us to be friends again, I'm tryin to heal. I'm a little healed, but you're rejecting me. I'm gettin tired. I want all of us to be friends again and can hang out, joking, crapping and such. I missed those times. Sigh. Don't know lah..I'm writing his name slowly into my book liaoz..but he's tryin to erase the name out himself. Well..time will tell......
Well, that's practically all lah. Oppz..forgot to mention Diana, Shufen, Shelmi, Wenjie, Karleong and Jiawei. Nevermind. Next time k? I have to go study liaoz. It's already 0132hrz. Tata and good night all!!