Lousy Day

I had a very lousy day today. Ok I got on the bus and reached school on time. But so what? First lesson was analog, went in then get paper. Was expecting to get around 60+, then get back liaoz I almost wanted to tear my paper. I got a measely 52/100. I know I passed, but come on lohz! 52 nia!! Damn! I know I didn't put in enough effort, but 52 is too little! At least a 60 lah! Piangz..was so demoralised, although I tried to laugh it off. Kept joking with Zhiwei, asking him to go outside stand. Thank God this subject no exams. It's AICDES (Analog IC Design) hor. Have to depend on my lab test this Friday liaoz. Argh! We were let off at 930, so went to have a smoke with John since he jio. We were discussing about Ngage, which Kev wanted to buy. John told me don't be stupid go buy for him cause we aren't stable yet. I want to buy also no means to buy ah, no money now. Argh! Went in look for Sue and HL, kena nagged by Sue. She told me to exercise more cause I look majiam like a weakling, here pain there pain. Piangz, I'm ok with it de really. I'm a char bor, I need guy's protection. LoL. I just like to whine nia. LoL. Create attention. Went for CKTCS, which I expected to fail. Maybe like get 20+ or 30 at the most. "Prata", our lecturer did tutorial with us before giving out the papers. When I saw the paper I threw it aside. My heart really sad and broken. I scored 10/100. This paper I really don't know how to do, and I almost wanted to take MC to skip taking this paper. Like I've said, don't like to do things that I no confidence de. This is the outcome. I calculated le. I need to score another 30%/40% to secure my passing of CA. Argh!! Kill me please! Went CKTCS lecture and the 2 Zhiweis talking to each other. Zhiwei and Theresa that is. Both also Zhiwei. So what I do leh? Bored. Read comics, got notes to copy then copy, else sleep. Was too tired and unhappy to do anything. Sad. Went for AICDES lecture I ji tao read comic. No mood to do anything or even talk. But my lecture mates can't feel it nor can they see I'm not happy. Why? Cause of the false front I'm puttin up..
Had lunch with Eugene, Huiling, Jacky and Sue today. Went over to God ma there cause my tuition place is just opposite the coffeeshop. So nice of them hor? Jacky was telling me that pathetic did something childish today. Jacky was sort of like quarreling with someone, the very same someone pathetic was jealous over, then pathetic was very happy and said out "Very good". Piangz. What the hell. What he trying to prove or do? He very happy people quarrel ah? Sadist siah! Wait, can't blame him also, he's pathetic remember? LoL. Even more pathetic than Bonkers. Poor thing, get a life for goodness sake! You're not making people love you, instead you're doing the opposite! Gawd, I would love to see you get into trouble, and then we shall see how many people are willing to stand by you then! Haha..retribution my dear pathetic shall come unwarned...

Tuition

Today first day teach tuition. My God. The girl is very cute! Skinny skinny de. But the mother like don't trust me. Keep standing at the door to observe my teaching. Diao. Please auntie!! I've 5 years experience. 1 of my students is now in Anglican High. Yah you guys laugh all you want. And yah yah, my student helped herself, the credits goes to her, not me k? Whatever. Not in the mood. Anyway I think I did a great job today, although I spent 1 hr on English alone and 50 min on Math and Chinese. Yep, I did overtime. I ALWAYS do overtime de. I must be crazy. First time teaching then I stayed till 420pm. Piangz!! Ok lah, the girl is cute. Her name's Cecilia. She told me that she was standing at the window, looking out then saw me. She thought got auntie walk by, cause I'm rather tall and big sized I think, but was shocked to see me entering her house. She say I enter her house liao then she was like wah so pretty. Diaoz. This girl is good. She knows how to "sa ka" (apple polish) me. Haha! She also said that I looked like one of her neighbour or something, so I joked with her, askin her whether that neighbour pretty or not, then she say yes. LoL. What a trick man. But can't deny the fact that she's very kpo, intelligent (easy money again), willing to learn, hyperactive and cute. She's really cute..buey tahan...

Paul aka Wenhui

Wenhui called me today. I was having tuition so I asked him if he wanna meet after my tuition. He told me he would meet me at my block at 5pm. I was like ok, cause meeting Diana at 4pm mah. He reached at 5 and I was at home with Diana, so I invited him over to my house. He came and we talked awhile, squabble and "fought" with each other with newspaper. LoL. Kids. He then told me something which made me really angry and almost slapped him. Na bey. He told me he wasn't chasing me at all, he was just trying to push me and Kev together, meaning pretending to be a threat to Kev so both of us would know what we want and do it. So must thank him that me and Kev together? Don't know. Diana was bored @ my house so 3 of us left and went over to Di's block and chat. After Diana left, I asked him why he had to act as if he's interested in me. Argh. Guys! Don't know what we said, but he kept patting my head and he massaged my aching arm. That's so sweet. When he was sending me to my block, he told me he left a present in my room. I was like huh?!? Didn't notice. He left it under my hamster food, so I went home to see. Guess what he gave me? A bus tic folded into heart shape. Really sweet! I didn't know such romantic guys still exist. Haha! So I asked him what's the meaning of that and he sort of like said he want to chase me. Should I believe? Or should I not? LoL, for now the heart is mine to keep..LoL..

Him

He's on MC again. Why lehz? Cause he not enough sleep. How shiok can his life be? Didn't talk to him much today. He slept almost the whole day. I realised something that is missing, or should I say exist too much in our relationship. He trusts me too much and ditto with me. It's like if I don't call him right, I won't know where is he nor who is he with sometimes. Just like on Mon he went out with this girl to Bishan, I didn't even know until he told me he went to meet this girl and this guy. All I know was he's meeting friends at Bishan. Isn't he afraid of losing me? I mean I don't think he'll ever knows if I go out with other ppl other than Sue et al*. Too much trust can make me independant, and with independance, I don't need a bf at all. Isn't that what I always say? I need a bf to sayang me, and I like seem to sayang him more than he does to me. I need a bf to speak up for me when I kena suan. I need someone to show me love. I'm confused..please someone, bring me the light and show me the right way...
Argh..was about to complain about him. Told him about my bad results and all he did was just kept quiet. He didn't console me. Sianz. Was rather sad about it. Hung up liao I received a msg, but it wasn't from him. Lagi sianz. Disappointed. When I about to lie on the bed, he called me. He asked if I want to meet. I was like huh..sleeping. LoL. He told me he got surprise for me. Asked for a hint and he told me to bring 2 spoons down. HAAGEN DAZS!!!! LoL. My favourite ice cream and the ONLY ice cream that I eat. Yay! He knows I'm feeling down then he buy ice cream for me to cheer me up. Haha!! He's so sweet!! Haha, but not as sweet as the ice cream. Haha! Thanks dear!! Love ya!! Now I'm wide awake, waitin for my ice cream to arrive...

*Et Al: and company