10th August 2004

Yay! Atomic 2nd Anniversary dinner is finally over!! I'm just so worn out even though I looked as if I'm doing nothing. LoL. Woke up at 10am and started preparing the things to bring over to Safra. Jap skirt: checked, Jap tee: checked, Jap socks: checked, Tie: checked, Guides Uniform: checked, Extra top: checked, Cosmetics: checked, Shoes: checked. Was going thru the list almost the whole morning. Didn't eat breakfast either, just had a bowl of black chicken soup left over from the previous night. Huh like that also can I hear you say. Yupz! Just couldn't be bothered to eat bread and ham, and I didn't want to eat noodles. Boh bian. Lazy what. Anyway I left home for school at around 2+pm, reached school liao Sue helped me pay $2 for my cab fare. It was when both of us were going thru the clothes then I realised I forgot to bring the vest for her. SHIT!! *Sigh* Helped Jacky to load the things onto Mr Andrew's car, then I took Mr Andrew's Miffy soft toy from the back. I wanted to put in my pocket and he said I better don't cause my jeans like never wash for many months. Na bey. First reaction I had was just to hit him, which I did. LoL. Oppz, natural reaction. Haha! Went over Safra and helped out from 430pm-1015pm. Damn tired.

4:30pm - 6pm: Reached there then unload everything. Had to start preparing le so I was actually helping them to pump air into the balloons. (Jacky calls them ba-loons) We made an arch from balloons so you can imagine how mny balloons we actually have to use. After making arch, I went for a break at the arcade with Eugene. We played Gun Bullet and he lost to me. LoL. Went back to help out a little more and smoked at the dinner area. Shiok.

6pm - 7pm: DINNER TIME!! We had to eat at 6 as there will not be enough time to eat later. First thing I took was oysters and mussels. Damn they're good! I took alot of food, supposed to share with the whole table, but don't know why communication breakdown then many of them took their own share. Damn! The food we took was so much that 10 of us couldn't finish it. I was the first one to stop eating cause I was rather full. My friend says I waste money, pay $22 then eat so little. What to do? Stomach small. LoL. The guests started arriving at 6:30 and I showed them to their seats and all. Was rather successful in getting them to seat down and listen to Mr Wong's speech. After the speech, it's everybody's turn to eat. What about me you say? Well, I had to run up to the reception table, check if anybody hasn't come, have to serve the lecturers drinks, discuss with Saleha about the program and such. *Shag*

7pm - 10pm: Ok had to find the catwalk contestants. Safra blacked out 2 times, making difficult for us to get dressed. I brought my Guides uniform, but I didn't want to participate. So I helped Meng Lei, Sue, Joel and Han Jie to get dressed up. Sue was surprised at how slim I was. She could fit into my skirt. LoL. I'm surprised I was that slim. Han Jie was the steadiest guy! He dressed up as an OL and had used up alot of newspaper to make out a pair of biggest boobs you'd ever seen. Think Ann Poh can siam liaoz. The contestants came out one by one and of course, Han Jie won. He "seduced" everybody, especially Mr Andrew. LoL. No wonder he won. Haha! Couldn't stand him. Although Sue didn't win, at least she'd gotten a consolation prize. First prize was HJ, Second was Princess Meng Lei and third goes to Count Dracula, Carlos. Was laughing my head off at all of them. They're so sporting and full of crapz. LoL. Love them! By 945pm, everything has ended. Barry and I counted the money and realised we were short of $22. Was so terrified till Meng Lei told us the money was with her. Sakura restaurant was very nice to us and gave us discount for 40 pax instead of 33 pax. Maybe cause got blackout for 2 times and they were guilty? LoL. I shaked hands with some of them, thanking them for being there for my "wedding" and they were like who's the groom? Barry then put his hand on my shoulders and said we were together for so long liao blah blah, then I kena saboed coz someone shouted for Celest. Shit. Haha! Nah, I've got my Kev le..

Went Jacky's house coz me and Sue helped him to carry his things home. We were actually waiting for Kev but he couldn't make it that early so we decided to go over to Jacky's house first. The 3 of us sat down and started chatting about today's event. It was really successful. I'm glad. At least I've something off my shoulders for now. I'm physically and mentally tired. My hp cranky again and kena scolded by Kev when he reach Jacky's house. LoL. Firstly, I gave him the wrong addy (supposed to be St 82, I told him 81), secondly I didn't call him, thirdly he couldn't get to me. LoL. Ok ok, I'm wrong. Sorry. Sorry I gave you the wrong addy, sorry for not calling you coz I thought you were gonna call, sorry for my hp being cranky and dying on me. LoL. Sent Sue home and then went to ta bao dinner for Kev. We then went over to his house and I slept. I was so damn fuckin tired.

Him

Muahaha! Think you guys should know the answer le ba. Yupz. We're together le. I really made his life miserable just now. I asked him where's my chocolates and flowers and he was like chocolates at 7-11 Mars bar, flowers on the roadside. Damn. How romantic can he get? I'm being sarcarstic. LoL. Think he also tired le, so didn't talk much when he was driving. Went back to his house I continued reading the story book. Think it's by R.L Stine, title is Chain Letter II. Can't be bothered to bring home and read. LoL. Was lying on his bed reading lohz. He eat finish liao still haven't asked me the question and when he wanted to kiss me I siamz. LoL. Keep forcing him to ask. LoL. "Must I really ask? Can don't ask or not? Why must ask?" Aiyoh, so many questions. Yes, No and cause I like it. Haha! In the end he did ask, in a very unromantic way, Will you be my gf? That's it!! Diao. I nodded my head. Not very romantic also hor? But WEF today, 11th Aug I'm attached. Coz he asked me after midnight mah. LoL. We slept till 3+am, or rather I slept till 3+am, and got ready to go home. He was sleeping so soundly and I was tempted to record his snoring sound, which I did. LoL. I wrote him a note telling him I have to go first and I let myself out of his house. Took a cab home and was thinking, well! I'm attached. Aren't I supposed to feel something? Excited? Happy? Elated? Funny thing was I was telling myself to be a good gf, and what I did just now was the least I could do for today. Asked myself why I never feel happy/excited/elated? Maybe cause we were like this since like 3-4 months back. LoL. Maybe that's why don't have the feeling of being in honeymoon. He has always been that sweet. Or is there something else that I feel deep inside of me that I can't explain? I want to be attached to him 3 mths back didn't I? Now that I am, I couldn't help wondering if I'm ACTUALLY ready for this relationship...Kev if you're reading this, give me time k? Maybe I'm just too tired out with my other committments, but I do love you...or do I not......
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Fucking Tired & Pissed

Yay! Fucking pissed today..felt so dulan. Argh! I've officially removed SOMEBODY (don't name him, think he see already also know who I'm referring to.) from my BLACK BOOK. Piangz! Just can't stand it le. Sorry, ren wu ke ren, hai shi yao ren, but now is ren wu ke ren, bu xu zai ren! Argh! I mean I've been trying to be nice to him liaoz, trying to win his trust (frankly speaking, I don't even know he trust me! He's such a paranoid) and gain this friendship back. But maybe it wasn't a friendship to begin with. Still remember that time talked to him, he say I'm not even his close friend. FINE! Sua sua! This kind of friend I can do without. Bloody hell! I was like WTH!! Ppl nice to you, the least you could do is be nice back. I've tried to tahan his straight-forwardness, but sorry lohz. His words too cutting liaoz. I've found many scars left behind by him, both on my back and in my heart. Na Bey. Fuck you. You hear me? That's the end of our friendship. I won't get close to you anymore. You aren't even my close friend. Get this? Since you want it this way, I'll give it to you. Happy now? You're always forever chasing your friends away. Don't blame them for what they do, it's all your own doing. You don't trust anyone at all. Carry on. You're a nobody to me, other than someone I have to work with. I've a piece of advice for you, don't do to others what you don't like others to do to you (including the way you speak, the way you talk and act) cause there's such things as retribution. Just wait and see.

Today went shopping with HL at Tampines Mall. I bought 2 skirts and 2 blouse, and guess the cost? $111. Steady? Best of all it's AFTER discount. It's ok I guess, cause I looked good in those clothes. LoL. I wanna puke. I'm broke!! Argh! Anyways, HL bought 3 tops and a pair of shoes. Speaking of shoes, I need to go buy shoes tml. LoL. Else Fri/Sat grad ceremony I don't have shoes. Damn! I went back school with HL and slacked around till they clock out. Me, Sue and Jacky then went bb tea shop to have a drink. The uncle taught me alot of things today: self-discipline, determination and education. He talks from his past experience and it was really enlightening. It's really nice to have talks with uncles or lecturers cause Mr Wong did taught me that love doesn't mean I need to have him. He told me to wait and see, let go if I have to. And now? I've him liaoz. LoL. Love ya dear! Went Jacky's house to edit the WFPT video. I'm the narrator. First we went thru the video to see where we need to cut short or increase the length, then find background music etc. I'd gone thru it so many times till I wana puke liaoz. I'm exaggerating again. LoL. I wrote out the script and first time we tried it was terrible. Mistakes everywhere. 2nd time I talk halfway my ph rang. Damn. Have to restart. Third time somewhere no good, retake. At the fourth time, although not very smooth, but was acceptable. THANK GOD! Jacky's showing Mr Wong tml. Hope can pass. Coz not fun to go thru the same thing over and over again. Poor Jacky. LoL.

My darling Kev!! I've asked myself today, over and over again if I am happy now that I'm in a relationship with you. I wasn't totally elated, but abit. Of course lah! Piangz, used to like my dear like 4 yrs back lohz! LoL. Now finally together. Funny huh? First time I've a bf whom I've known for more than 6 months. LoL. I've asked alot of ppl why I feel as though there's something missing in this relationship, it's like there's no honeymoon period at all. Each and every one of them told me the same thing: we were close to each other BEFORE getting together, so it's like the honeymoon period had already passed. DAMN!! Haha! Charmain says with him, everyday is like honeymoon period. LoL. Hmmz, dear, so it's not I don't love you lehz, I realised I do. Every time I talk, there's bound to be topics about you. You're on my mind. LoL. I care about you and I do miss you. So I guess I really do love you. But I still want my flowers and chocolate!! LoL. Joking nia! My dear, my bitch, my Kev. Wonder how would our common friends back at ITAS react if they know we're together? LoL. Interesting...would they like "finally together" or would they like "wth? are you jokin? they're together?" or other reaction? I'm very curious to know...