School
Today no ICAPP lab, so woke up at 9am. That Huiling called me and woke me up. Argh! Then went back sleep till 10am then wake up. My lesson at 11am mah, wake up so early also watch cartoon nia. Watched Hercules before going school. It's a re-run, but hey! Losers can't be choosers. Go school then realised I din bring my timetable. Piangz..heng Zhiwei same class as me in all subjects lohz. Though I was late, but lecturer later! Zhiwei, Han Sim, Dexian and Hong Ye(aka 4 musketeers) all wear black, today I also wear black. Majiam going song kah. Saw Wenhui when I was queueing for the atm. He asked me why I din call him. I was like huh? Got ask me to call meh? He say jio me go lim kopi, but should be next week ba. Lunch went to kopidiam next to Macs and we slacked there asking qian bian wen da ti. Went back lecture at 2pm instead of 1pm, 2:30 finish class liaoz. Nothing interesting happened today..
When I went back school, I was actually late for my class lohz. So I opened the back door..shit, kena stuck! Went in at first I sat at the last row, with Weisoon, but then saw my group mates so went front row, but then Dexian sitting 2nd row so I sat with him. Lecture din go, cause this week got ppl help me sign, next week then go. After class, me, Suefong, Huiling and Weiliang went Tampines. Updated my bus stamp then went eat din din at Burger King, then lim kopi. We also steady, sit until ppl close shop. Saw my ex-collegue from Genius Aircon and chatted with him. Got to know from his that Freddie(my ex-boss) had his retribution when Ah Foo, Ah Hao, Ah Tee, Ah Han and another guy quit together. Shiok right!! Orbi..then I got Calvin's and Ah Foo's number from Thomas. So long no contact them, kinda missed those working days with them talking cock everyday...

Family
Argh!! I'm so damn angry with my dad!! Called him to remind him about transferring my pocket money to me, and he say must cut cause I always go drinking and smoking. Either that or come home late. I was like WTH!! I din go drinking whole of last week lohz! Not that I can remember! Anyway my mom din say anything means I can do it!! WTF..trying to find excuses not to give me pocket money! Messaged him that if mom trusts me, so should he! And if one day I turn to drugs it's all his fault cause the more he restricts me, the more I'll rebel. That's why I started smoking 5 yrs ago! He slapped me across my face one night after getting himself drunk, and by the next day I was so dulan I bought my first pack of cigg. This is my way of hurting him..emotionally!! Hate him!!!!!!

Him
Hmmz, he messaged me around 5+pm, asking if I was busy the whole day. I was like no, but din want to bother him lohz. He said I was bluffing, but to tell you the truth, I was busy enjoying myself. Enjoying talking cock with my friends, laughing, getting angry with my dad blah blah blah. Anyways, I don't really know what I want from him also. My feelings for him is like the weather, sometimes hot and sometimes cold. Meaning, sometimes the feeling is there, sometimes it's not. Maybe cause he's not my bf ba, he's kinda a crush. There's part of me that likes him, but part of me is telling me not to get into a relationship cause I've actually no confidence in myself right now. He's a very sweet guy, and if my future bf/husband is like him(not sayin that he'll be my husband), I'll be very happy. He actually came down to my house here just to see me lohz, at around 11++ close to midnight le. He's a sweet guy, but I still need more time to recollect my feelings and all, cause I'm damn freaking confused about our relationship...to continue like this or not to continue, that is a question, a question where the answer doesn't lies in me, it lies in him...and partly in me, cause I don't know how much I like him......